Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Thanks, Alea.
It was peaceful. The vet and his assistant were both incredibly kind. They explained everything to me, and then after they'd put in the catheter, they let me hold him as long as I wanted. He was calm and quiet when the time came. Unfortunately, the catheter hadn't gone in correctly, so they had to replace it, but he was still calm and we pet him for awhile until I was sure he was feeling okay. He was on my lap. There was a sedative that worked quickly, and then the shot to stop his heart. It was over in seconds. They let me hold his body until I was ready to let go. Atty had pet him one last time, but as she was leaving, the nurse asked if we wanted him to pet Reece. We said no, since he already had, but then Atty just started wailing and crying as the nurse walked out with him. I know he didn't understand that Reece was dead, but he did understand that Reece was going away. We hugged him and then asked him if he wanted popcorn, which he did, and so we went home.
I cried and bawled for a good long while on the way home and after we got back in the house. I took a Benedryl, which helped me relax, and watched The Aristocats with Atticus, while eating the promised popcorn, and then took a good long nap. Donny and I keep talking about the things we remember about him. How he used to chase his tail on the toilet tank. How he'd give us fistbumps with his forehead. How much he liked to knead me and how loud he could purr. "He's in kittycat Nirvana, now," said Donny, a reference to Reece's determination to get back through the hole under the sink in Wichita. I like to think he is.
I miss his presence in our apartment. I keep expecting to see him. Donny says the same. Before I fall asleep, it feels like he should jump on the bed beside me. In the morning, he should be meowing for breakfast. This morning, Atty got up and immediately went and looked under the Christmas tree, which has been Reece's favorite spot over the past couple of days. "Bwee-eh? Bwee? Bwwee-eh?" (Reeces? Reece? Reeces?) I reminded Atty that Reece was gone. He was disappointed, but then moved on to watching Thomas and eating toast.
It was peaceful. The vet and his assistant were both incredibly kind. They explained everything to me, and then after they'd put in the catheter, they let me hold him as long as I wanted. He was calm and quiet when the time came. Unfortunately, the catheter hadn't gone in correctly, so they had to replace it, but he was still calm and we pet him for awhile until I was sure he was feeling okay. He was on my lap. There was a sedative that worked quickly, and then the shot to stop his heart. It was over in seconds. They let me hold his body until I was ready to let go. Atty had pet him one last time, but as she was leaving, the nurse asked if we wanted him to pet Reece. We said no, since he already had, but then Atty just started wailing and crying as the nurse walked out with him. I know he didn't understand that Reece was dead, but he did understand that Reece was going away. We hugged him and then asked him if he wanted popcorn, which he did, and so we went home.
I cried and bawled for a good long while on the way home and after we got back in the house. I took a Benedryl, which helped me relax, and watched The Aristocats with Atticus, while eating the promised popcorn, and then took a good long nap. Donny and I keep talking about the things we remember about him. How he used to chase his tail on the toilet tank. How he'd give us fistbumps with his forehead. How much he liked to knead me and how loud he could purr. "He's in kittycat Nirvana, now," said Donny, a reference to Reece's determination to get back through the hole under the sink in Wichita. I like to think he is.
I miss his presence in our apartment. I keep expecting to see him. Donny says the same. Before I fall asleep, it feels like he should jump on the bed beside me. In the morning, he should be meowing for breakfast. This morning, Atty got up and immediately went and looked under the Christmas tree, which has been Reece's favorite spot over the past couple of days. "Bwee-eh? Bwee? Bwwee-eh?" (Reeces? Reece? Reeces?) I reminded Atty that Reece was gone. He was disappointed, but then moved on to watching Thomas and eating toast.
There's another home somewhere,
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
So sorry for your loss, The good ones are the hardest to loose.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
It's been 7 years since I had to have Cat put down and I still feel like i'll hear him at my window when I go to bed. I remember Alea making a donation to her local animal shelter when I came to pweb with the news of Cat and that's always stuck with me. I picked up an extra bag of cat food tonight and dropped it off at my shelter and made a small donation in Reece's name. It's not much, but I remember how much it touched me and really made me feel a little better when Alea did something similar.I miss his presence in our apartment. I keep expecting to see him.
I'm glad he had you guys to love him.
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And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Thanks so much. I am really, really touched. I told Donny and he is, too. That's really lovely. It made us think that someday we'd like to sponsor an animal at our local shelter for Tara and Reece. (You can pay a cat's adoption fees, in whole or in part, to help someone adopt.) Again, thanks. I'm very grateful for a little light coming out of our sadness.
There's another home somewhere,
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Ho Bob, I'm shure sad to see P-web kinda slipping into inactivity.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Likewise.
There's another home somewhere,
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
*teehee*Thirded
Fourthed. Despite being a guilty party.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Hey Bob,
Sorry for lurking. Miss you guys!
I am really really happy with my life right now .
Claire
Sorry for lurking. Miss you guys!
I am really really happy with my life right now .
Claire
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Where did they all go Bob?
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Into the abyss!
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Out of the abyss walked a cow, Elsie.Into the abyss!
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Dear Bob,
Can I get some props for having accurately called the exact film they would make in the name of EG but without any soul?
HF kind of phoned it in too, eh?
Saunters off to sip some limeade.
Can I get some props for having accurately called the exact film they would make in the name of EG but without any soul?
HF kind of phoned it in too, eh?
Saunters off to sip some limeade.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Bob,
I keep forgetting to come here. It's weird when I realize that it's been a month or longer since I've stopped by. How do you forget to visit your home?
School is in full swing. Tyler's a 5th grader. Last year of elementary. Brayden's in 2nd. Kinley started Kindergarten. It's weird having one on one time with Jocelyn. It's been so long since I've had only a toddler, I'm not sure how to do it any more! She has 3 years before she'll start school, so I know we'll figure it out. Extracurriculars are piling on as the kids get older. GT. Choir. Karate. Piano. Cello. Gymnastics. Cub scouts. There's hardly time for the kids to just be kids anymore.
Speaking of cello, I cried my broken-heart mom tears last night that I couldn't afford for to Tyler to do cello at school. $20/month for the class and $56/month for the instrument rental. Eek! I figured as a last-ditch effort I'd post on facebook to see if anyone had a 1/2 size cello they'd let us borrow. (What good are all these social connections if not to help you?) A friend that moved 5 years ago has one. That she'll let us use for free. And she only lives an hour away. We'll pick it up next weekend. It's amazing and I'm feeling like maybe my ability to make connections with people really does have some value.
Brian has started his last semester of his 2nd bachelors degree. He'll finish in November. I really need him to get a new job, for his stress level, for our family's future. Any prayers, vibes, karma, etc. you could send his way (or, you know, computer jobs) we would really appreciate it.
Child taxi service calls, so off I go. Don't give up on me pweb. I'm trying to remember to come.
Steph
I keep forgetting to come here. It's weird when I realize that it's been a month or longer since I've stopped by. How do you forget to visit your home?
School is in full swing. Tyler's a 5th grader. Last year of elementary. Brayden's in 2nd. Kinley started Kindergarten. It's weird having one on one time with Jocelyn. It's been so long since I've had only a toddler, I'm not sure how to do it any more! She has 3 years before she'll start school, so I know we'll figure it out. Extracurriculars are piling on as the kids get older. GT. Choir. Karate. Piano. Cello. Gymnastics. Cub scouts. There's hardly time for the kids to just be kids anymore.
Speaking of cello, I cried my broken-heart mom tears last night that I couldn't afford for to Tyler to do cello at school. $20/month for the class and $56/month for the instrument rental. Eek! I figured as a last-ditch effort I'd post on facebook to see if anyone had a 1/2 size cello they'd let us borrow. (What good are all these social connections if not to help you?) A friend that moved 5 years ago has one. That she'll let us use for free. And she only lives an hour away. We'll pick it up next weekend. It's amazing and I'm feeling like maybe my ability to make connections with people really does have some value.
Brian has started his last semester of his 2nd bachelors degree. He'll finish in November. I really need him to get a new job, for his stress level, for our family's future. Any prayers, vibes, karma, etc. you could send his way (or, you know, computer jobs) we would really appreciate it.
Child taxi service calls, so off I go. Don't give up on me pweb. I'm trying to remember to come.
Steph
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I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time." - Jamie Cullum
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Bob,
We lost a Pwebber this month. CalvinMaker/Noah apparently committed suicide on July 10. He hasn't been here in a while but...how sad.
We lost a Pwebber this month. CalvinMaker/Noah apparently committed suicide on July 10. He hasn't been here in a while but...how sad.
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I just went to fb to check this out, since I hasn't heard about this. Facebook, how could you think that I wouldn't want to see all the posts that people have tagged him in the last few weeks? I'm in compete shock right now. I almost got to see him a month ago when he was moving to Vegas, but it was father's day and so I had other commitments. My heart can't take this.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Oh, that's so sad. I feel so deeply for his family and loved ones.
you snooze, you lose
well I have snozzed and lost
I'm pushing through
I'll disregard the cost
I hear the bells
so fascinating and
I'll slug it out
I'm sick of waiting
and I can
hear the bells are
ringing joyful and triumphant
well I have snozzed and lost
I'm pushing through
I'll disregard the cost
I hear the bells
so fascinating and
I'll slug it out
I'm sick of waiting
and I can
hear the bells are
ringing joyful and triumphant
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I didn't know him well, but I do remember him and I am so very, very sorry to hear that.
There's another home somewhere,
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I saw the sad news on FB, too, when Steve (Boothby) posted about it. I remember meeting Noah at Endercon, and several years later at a Hatrack get-together in Atlanta. Really terrible.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
That is so, so sad. I also met him at Endercon. Mental illness is a terrible disease.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I didn't know him very well, but he seemed like a cool dude when he was here.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
Thanks for sharing the news . I'm so sad to hear that, how awful.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I'm so sorry to hear about this. I didn't know Noah very well, but I know what he meant to this community.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I don't know how I'm going to manage not voting this election! Trump is a loose cannon and Hillary, I dont suppose most of you were out in the workforce (or even born) when the clintons were in office. All i remember are all the lawsuits ,trials,then there was the impeacment and all the claims against Hillary varrying from her supposedly killing her boyfriend to her and her infamous father stealing all those oldfolks blind with the whitewater scam. How soon some forget, and then there are those who dont want to know. Sad
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I won't bother with addressing any of those points, buckshot, because I think a lot of what you said boils down to leanings, perspective, and some ingrained biases we all tend to have...but I was alive for the Clinton administration, disagree with some of it, approve of other parts of it, and know enough about Hillary, as someone who is completely separate and different than her husband, to feel more than comfortable voting for her this November. I hope you find someone to vote for at the presidential level, but if not, you should still vote for all the other offices that are on the ballot.
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Bob,
A little sad over the loss of AIM IMing soon. Most of my best conversations, with some of my best friends, took place over that service.
A little sad over the loss of AIM IMing soon. Most of my best conversations, with some of my best friends, took place over that service.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
I have so many memories (and also things I've forgotten) associated with AIM, as well as the old AOL chatrooms. Fare thee well, AOL yellow running guy.Bob,
A little sad over the loss of AIM IMing soon. Most of my best conversations, with some of my best friends, took place over that service.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
It's so lonely around here, nowadays. The most resent post I've found (besides my own) was in July
Does anyone talk anymore? We need to bring more people on.
Does anyone talk anymore? We need to bring more people on.
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
There isn't much back and forth, but I can easily see a dozen posts in October, just below this thread.
And, again, there isn't much discussion but the stuff that exists mostly stopped being about Ender long ago, with the exception of the time around the movie release.
But where are my manners? Welcome to Pweb!
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Thank you for your kindness. So far, you're the only one who's spoken to me directly. I am glad to be here
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This place is too quiet!
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Bob,
A coworker and I parted ways a few weeks ago, in terms of being friendly at work, because I put my foot down and said my staff didn't have time to help her with a project she was leading (it would, for full disclosure, be beneficial for the whole library but certainly not essential). I also suggested we ask the volunteer coordinator, whom we shared a dislike of, to help us arrange for help from volunteers. That was what set her off. She thought I was personally trying to make her life hell, which really wasn't the intent. I would only ask for this person to get involved in the rarest, and most necessary of cases. My coworker bitched me out, via text, rather than in person like I asked and has been avoiding me since.
I'm a little uncomfortable with it - like it really just takes one thing to piss her off enough to write me off after 2+ years? - but I'm also a lot relieved. She was so.damn.negative, it was draining. I feel bad that it's throwing another work/friend dynamic off (we occasionally hung out with one other person outside work) but not enough to try fixing it. I don't have time or patience for that.
Have I mentioned, Bob, that I hate work drama?
A coworker and I parted ways a few weeks ago, in terms of being friendly at work, because I put my foot down and said my staff didn't have time to help her with a project she was leading (it would, for full disclosure, be beneficial for the whole library but certainly not essential). I also suggested we ask the volunteer coordinator, whom we shared a dislike of, to help us arrange for help from volunteers. That was what set her off. She thought I was personally trying to make her life hell, which really wasn't the intent. I would only ask for this person to get involved in the rarest, and most necessary of cases. My coworker bitched me out, via text, rather than in person like I asked and has been avoiding me since.
I'm a little uncomfortable with it - like it really just takes one thing to piss her off enough to write me off after 2+ years? - but I'm also a lot relieved. She was so.damn.negative, it was draining. I feel bad that it's throwing another work/friend dynamic off (we occasionally hung out with one other person outside work) but not enough to try fixing it. I don't have time or patience for that.
Have I mentioned, Bob, that I hate work drama?
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Re: Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0
in lieu of that i guess i'll just tread water in existential depression/terror
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