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Woohoo! Go Kelly!

Dear Bob,

I think I'm done. Pweb just doesn't have the pull that it used to, and I've never really been active on the board, mostly just watching everything, reading the arguments but never getting involved. It's been over 4 years, and there are very few people that I feel I really know. I'll still probably get on AIM chat, but I won't be on the board anymore.

Dear Bob was what convinced me to join in the first place, and this is the thread that I'll miss the most. Thanks to everyone for "listening" to me complain about my actually really good life. And once again Bob, thanks for listening.

~wizzard/Ozzy/Ethan

Ozzy...

Dear Bob,

Why did I just do that?

I would feel more comfortable doing the macarena on stage at a death metal show butt naked with my penis tucked between my legs....

But I did it anyways.
To prove a point?

Well, it's there now...

I don't know how I expect to work when my stomach's doing backflips and I can't help but shake...

I can't even understand why I'd do that either.

Tell me it'll do something?
Tell me it'll strike a chord (eugh...bad pun)
No, I don't want what you think I want out of this.
I just want it to invoke thought...that's all I want....for it to invoke some thought, invoke some emotion...

It's certainly invoking emotion in me right now....

--Cam

Dear Bob,

I think I'm done. Pweb just doesn't have the pull that it used to, and I've never really been active on the board, mostly just watching everything, reading the arguments but never getting involved. It's been over 4 years, and there are very few people that I feel I really know. I'll still probably get on AIM chat, but I won't be on the board anymore.

Dear Bob was what convinced me to join in the first place, and this is the thread that I'll miss the most. Thanks to everyone for "listening" to me complain about my actually really good life. And once again Bob, thanks for listening.

~wizzard/Ozzy/Ethan

Aw.

What's wrong with just reading and posting in just one thread?

Now and then, Bob. Now and then. Now and then I feel like it is all worthwhile and that yes, I was put on this earth in order to sit in rooms with people and listen to them. That is what God made me for. And people are helped by it. Really, truly, actually helped.

It doesn't happen often. Now and then. But when it does happen, I hear Prufrock saying, "And would it have been worth it, after all?" and I answer, yes, it was. It was worth it after all.

dear bob,

i can't do this. it's too much. i just can't. i'll never survive the next three months if i keep caring. about anything. so i'm shutting down, now. i'm closing off.

what did i used to call it? when i was younger?

die a little death.

Dear Bob,

I think I may have decided what I want to do for my Masters (when I graduate in two years...) I want to do medieval studies with book history & print culture. However, this means changing my programme a bit... I guess it's going to be goodbye, fair Linguistics specialist! hello, fair Linguistics major, Latin minor, and Book & Media Studies minor! Here's hoping they offer good courses so that I can still pull this off in two years and still get more or less what I would enjoy.

~Rei

Bob,
[quote=""Always Been There" by Spur58"]

I have done all the right things for all the wrong reasons
I have been here before, it seems like time and time again
I keep trying to find life in the places life's not found
I'm recessitating old flames without thoughts of getting burned

It is possible that I
Could ever get it right?[/quote]

Me

Dear Bob,

It's hard to shake off the belief that all classes are a waste of time (except for, you know, getting that paper at the end of the four years). I didn't realize I even had it until recently.

-me

Zero,

Yours is just paper? We get a sheepskin. And I get 2. (I'm Dual Degreeing... a step above Double Majoring.)



Dear Bob,

Well, today should be interesting. It's such a busy day, but still not busy, all at the same time. I have 2 presentations to give-- one 4 minute one on the anatomy of the hip joint and a 12-15 minute one on my senior design project. I also need to complete my paper and a thermodynamics problem set that are due tomorrow.

However, I have big swatches of down time. I have from now 'til about 10:15 (because I have class with presentation 1 @10:50). Then I have from about noon to 2:15. Then I'm busy from 2:15-7 with the senior design competition. Then, I need to finish whatever stuff I didn't get done during those other down times.

Oh boy, Bob, what a day.

Paper as in... it looks like a thin sheet. Or.... something.

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lock up the heart, Kel. die a little death.


bob,

from now on i have decided that, for the purposes of retaining my rapidly decreasing sanity, i am only allowed to release emotion in the shower. that's it. 15-20 minutes a day, and i'm the last one in the house in the mornings, so in the shower i can cry or scream or do whatever it is i might need to do so that i don't explode. after the shower is over, so is the catharsis. back to being a fortress.

i can't afford to lose it right now.


just suck it up.


just DEAL.


i'm going to take my shower now. and then it's done. lock it up. die a little death. do what you gotta do.

Zero,

Yours is just paper? We get a sheepskin. And I get 2. (I'm Dual Degreeing... a step above Double Majoring.)

A literal sheepskin??! Don't people protest with the animal rights and whatnot?

Dear Bob,

Just dawned on me that it's been over a year since my grandfather died.

Wow.

I wasn't close to him.

But I miss knowing he's in the world.

Zero,

Yours is just paper? We get a sheepskin. And I get 2. (I'm Dual Degreeing... a step above Double Majoring.)

A literal sheepskin??! Don't people protest with the animal rights and whatnot?

Yes, literally a sheepskin. And, no I don't think we've had protestors. It isn't like we kill the sheep just for the skin... they were going to get eaten anyway...

ew.

Dear Bob,
I wish i knew how to fix myself, or at least get the courage to change myself and habits. I keep having insomnia and nightmares about people and trying to change the situations that I cannot. Today was the first day in a long time that i wanted to place myself in a hermitage or a mental institution. Somethings I find hard to deal with and even harder to talk about with friends or family.
Firegirl

I'm Dual Degreeing... a step above Double Majoring.

Your powers of overachievement truly know no bounds.

Dear Bob,
I am finally getting a laptop, picking it up after work today.
Woohoo. I am so excited.

Me

Bob,
My ego was stroked quite extensively at school this past week, and I rather liked it.

A group of students have adopted my classroom as an after school hangout (they stay after...on purpose...to hang out near me!) a few times a week and it gives me a huge case of the warm-fuzzies.

One girl told me I was her favorite teacher and trusted me enough to tell me her life story. It was very moving.

Another student asked for advice on how to deal with his mom, and revealed a lot of personal things about their relationship as well as his relationship with his girlfriend.

This total sweetheart has been doing so well in class compared to last semester, and I try to make it a point to tell her on a regular basis how wonderful she's doing and how proud I am because she smiles when I do. One of those real, breathtaking, ear-to-ear, beautiful smiles that makes those that see it feel like a million dollars.

I got praised three times by the vice principal and the principal this week. I am excellent, according to them.

I did a small favor for a co-worker and she thinks I'm a saint now.

I talked to that same co-worker and another co-worker after school and we all came away from the conversation relieved and soothed.

Yes, it was a good week at school.

I'm so happy to hear you had a good week, babe! Love you!

Dear Bob,

I want to be cuddled right now. So, so badly.

*gives kimmie a hug*

Its not much, but i hope it helps.

*cuddles*

Dear bob,
I want to talk to him but I am afraid I will say the wrong things again and he will run once more. And this time he may not come back. What should I do? Should I suck it up and just chance it or play it safe? Well I might chance it, who knows.
~Meya

Dear Bob,

Sometimes you get left all alone--all alone, and the only thing you can do is pull out your dead phone and have an imaginary conversation with an imaginary someone who loves you and cares about what you have to say. But life, it moves on and you have to tell the fabricated person goodbye and take care, even if there's no one around to hear, no one you have to act for.

Life moves on, but that doesn't make it not hurt.

I hate being alone, Bob.

Dear Bob.

I'm tired. I'm sore. I'm cold. I have a rather nasty chore to deal with today and am SO not looking forward to it. But if I get it done that means I'll have one less nasty chore tomorrow. Also, getting it done today means I can blast the music while I'm downstairs takin' care of business, since I'm the only one home. And after that, I've got to finish my mail and get it all nice and neat in the box. So much to do; so little time.

Tomorrow... post office trip first thing in the morning! I wish I could remember what street it's on. I'd rather just walk there. Alas, I don't remember. I could look it up. That'd probably be smart. Yeah. I'll look it up.

Bob, why is listening to Patsy Cline so darn hard to pass up? *sigh* I love the woman's music, even if it's mostly about lost love.

Okay, I've procrastinated for an hour... now it's time to get serious and do what I gotta do. If I can get the chores done in two hours I'll be happy. Then, I can distract myself the rest of the day. Yay.

Take it easy, Bob. Thanks for listening to me whine.
-Nikki

Bob,

My buddy broke our internet. I really hate not being able to check everything.

Also, today was one of the worst days at work I can remember. I'm *so* tired. Two weeks with this kind of crazy schedule can get to ya. One of them down at least.

I need a vacation.

- Fred

Dear Bob,

I had a dream last night. It was a vivid and colourful dream, as they have been lately. I'm not certain, though, if I should draw hope or resignation from this last one, though. Jo used to have dreams about her fears and I told her not to worry, because those dreams were just something coming from her heart and would doubtfully ever happen. Does the same thing apply to good dreams? Simply something I would dearly love, and therefore I dream about it? Or am I allowed to hope that perhaps it may actually come true, because it is good? I don't think I like the answer, Bob. But I'm not certain if I can hold onto hope on my own.

~Rei

Bob,
I'd like to make a complaint against Disney and money-hungry eBay-ers. I want, want, want The Lion King and Beauty and the Beast and Sleeping Beauty on DVD. REALLY want. But $40-80 for one DVD? It hurts my head to think about it. If Disney would just keep the stupid DVDs out instead of locking them up for 10 years (or more) at a time, I wouldn't be having this problem of do I or don't I throw that much money away for some childhood memories.

*grumble*

But $40-80 for one DVD?

That's highway robbery ;_;

Bob,

I lead multiple lives. Everyone knows a different me. It's quite humorous to watch people say, "Oh, I know you, you'd definitely like this" or "Come on, you and I both know you wouldn't do that." They'll never know the half of it. Well, I suppose I should be content with getting to laugh at them, but I'm not. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to remember who I am with each person I talk to, I wish I could just let everyone know the whole me. Ah well, not yet.

bob,

i decided i'm living alone next year, most likely. as kevin mccallister would say, "when i grow up and get married, i'm living alone!" this is actually a pretty big change/decision for me.

hmph. and i want a kitty.

that is all.