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Dear Bob,
I'm kind of really annoyed. On my current rotation, there are 6 students and 4 patients in the hospital. 2 of them are my patients. How does that happen?!
Also, I need to study for rounds tomorrow because I want to impress the clinicians because I want them to write me a recommendation letter. But... I don't want to study! And I was so busy doing you know patient care today that I didn't even get to contribute to the rounds topics that we're going to do. AND! all my classmates and the head clinician left at 3:30 and the resident, intern and I were there with my patient until 5:30.
Uuuuuuugh.
I'm kind of really annoyed. On my current rotation, there are 6 students and 4 patients in the hospital. 2 of them are my patients. How does that happen?!
Also, I need to study for rounds tomorrow because I want to impress the clinicians because I want them to write me a recommendation letter. But... I don't want to study! And I was so busy doing you know patient care today that I didn't even get to contribute to the rounds topics that we're going to do. AND! all my classmates and the head clinician left at 3:30 and the resident, intern and I were there with my patient until 5:30.
Uuuuuuugh.
-Kim
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Bob,
I'm not proud of how much satisfaction I get out of ignoring him and then counting up the times he has messaged "hello" & variations there of [my reaction to his graduation pictures: huh, he's not really attractive anymore (was he ever, self? honestly??)]. I'm not really mad at him, I just feel sorry for him & the decisions he's making. And if ignoring him makes me feel any better about it, well then I am going to stay perpetually signed in. I at least told him I forgot to sign out last time, or well, after he had thought I was there 5 times over a 24 hour period.
Also, sending me hey 15 times isn't going to make me answer it when I'm reading a book.
I'm not proud of how much satisfaction I get out of ignoring him and then counting up the times he has messaged "hello" & variations there of [my reaction to his graduation pictures: huh, he's not really attractive anymore (was he ever, self? honestly??)]. I'm not really mad at him, I just feel sorry for him & the decisions he's making. And if ignoring him makes me feel any better about it, well then I am going to stay perpetually signed in. I at least told him I forgot to sign out last time, or well, after he had thought I was there 5 times over a 24 hour period.
Also, sending me hey 15 times isn't going to make me answer it when I'm reading a book.
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
Is this like Scrubs, where you all walk around with clipboards, following a cantankerous middle-aged man as he asks you questions and calls you names of the opposite sex, all the while tilting your head every time you have what you consider to be a deep thought?the rounds topics that we're going to do
It was the word "rounds" that did it for me.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways, all my underdogs.
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Mostly, we gather around whiteboards holding small books (mine is magenta) or notecards for patient rounds (where they ask questions- respectfully about specific patients) or around tables for topics rounds (where they ask us questions/teach about specific pre-determined topics.)
It would be cooler if it was like scrubs.
It would be cooler if it was like scrubs.
-Kim
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Bob,
I'm worried about Babe, my newish leopard gecko. When I first got her, she ate like a pig (no pun intended, ha!) and gained tons of weight. Then, right before I left for California, she stopped eating. It's now been about three weeks and she still refuses to eat. About a week ago, I started force feeding her some worms and slurry stuff. She hasn't lost much weight but I'm really worried about her. I already brought her to the vet once when I first got her for a different issue. I really doubt they would be able to help with this, because I've brought Pheeny there a few times when she wouldn't eat and they just said "wait it out". But Babe is ten years old and I'm worried she just might die soon. Sigh...
I'm worried about Babe, my newish leopard gecko. When I first got her, she ate like a pig (no pun intended, ha!) and gained tons of weight. Then, right before I left for California, she stopped eating. It's now been about three weeks and she still refuses to eat. About a week ago, I started force feeding her some worms and slurry stuff. She hasn't lost much weight but I'm really worried about her. I already brought her to the vet once when I first got her for a different issue. I really doubt they would be able to help with this, because I've brought Pheeny there a few times when she wouldn't eat and they just said "wait it out". But Babe is ten years old and I'm worried she just might die soon. Sigh...
"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer." - Albert Camus in Return to Tipasa
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I read an article (an online article, so not particularly credible) today about how depression is healthy and shouldn't be medicated. It qualified that severe depression was an exception.
This article upset me because:
-who is giving out medication for situational depression?? medications are not without consequences.
-I agree that without medications is preferable.
-I feel like a hypocrite because I have antidepressants in the cabinate at home and am considering starting back on them.
This article upset me because:
-who is giving out medication for situational depression?? medications are not without consequences.
-I agree that without medications is preferable.
-I feel like a hypocrite because I have antidepressants in the cabinate at home and am considering starting back on them.
Yay, I'm a llama again!
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I think some situational depressions can/should be medicated. It depends what the situation is and how long the depression lasts. Sometimes a situation triggers a depression that ends up lasting a VERY long time. For example, if a loved one dies and the person isn't able to get over the sadness in a normal amount of time. Sometimes the person needs medication to help them cope with the grief or to function through a particularly difficult time. This is definitely not true for everyone but perhaps for people already prone to depression.
Anyway, in my case, I had bouts of depression from around the age of 13 onwards. Most of the time they were situational and didn't last longer than a few weeks or so but they were BAD when they occurred. When I was 22, my best friend moved away and I felt such an unreasonable sense of loss and sadness, which did not go away even after a year. I would wake up every day with that sense of doom. I would cry all the time. That is when I finally went on antidepressants for the first time. So, in a sense, it was triggered by a "situation" but it really had nothing to do with my friend moving. Or at least, that situation just brought up all kinds of feelings of abandonment that I had from earlier in my life. I should have gone into therapy at the time but I didn't until some years later. I have been on medication for the last 12 years. I don't plan on ever going off of them. Even on them, I barely feel able to function a lot of the time. However, I do have chronic migraines which I think adds to my depression.
I don't know why I went on about this, I guess I just felt like talking.
Please, please, please don't feel like a hypocrite if you decide to go back on antidepressants. Would you feel bad for taking insulin if you were a diabetic? If medication makes you feel more like a normal person, allows you to function at a higher level, then why not take it? Sure, if the side effects are bad, I understand not wanting to. But that's why doctors are supposed to work with you to find the right medication. The benefits should outweigh the drawbacks. But the stigma of mental illness and antidepressants should NOT be what holds you back from making the decision to feel better.
I really hope I didn't offend anyone with any of that. *hugs*
Anyway, in my case, I had bouts of depression from around the age of 13 onwards. Most of the time they were situational and didn't last longer than a few weeks or so but they were BAD when they occurred. When I was 22, my best friend moved away and I felt such an unreasonable sense of loss and sadness, which did not go away even after a year. I would wake up every day with that sense of doom. I would cry all the time. That is when I finally went on antidepressants for the first time. So, in a sense, it was triggered by a "situation" but it really had nothing to do with my friend moving. Or at least, that situation just brought up all kinds of feelings of abandonment that I had from earlier in my life. I should have gone into therapy at the time but I didn't until some years later. I have been on medication for the last 12 years. I don't plan on ever going off of them. Even on them, I barely feel able to function a lot of the time. However, I do have chronic migraines which I think adds to my depression.
I don't know why I went on about this, I guess I just felt like talking.
Please, please, please don't feel like a hypocrite if you decide to go back on antidepressants. Would you feel bad for taking insulin if you were a diabetic? If medication makes you feel more like a normal person, allows you to function at a higher level, then why not take it? Sure, if the side effects are bad, I understand not wanting to. But that's why doctors are supposed to work with you to find the right medication. The benefits should outweigh the drawbacks. But the stigma of mental illness and antidepressants should NOT be what holds you back from making the decision to feel better.
I really hope I didn't offend anyone with any of that. *hugs*
"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer." - Albert Camus in Return to Tipasa
*hugs for Nomi*
I've been less than my best in treating my mental health issues, for one reason or another, but it hasn't been ruled out that my depression was situational and it was suggested by two different therapists that I consider medication (though, the second thought I am bipolar; I have yet to see the recommended 3rd professional to get a yay or nay on exhibiting signs of bipolar). It can be debilitating, if that is in fact what I had/have, just the same as "real"/severe depression.
But, to be honest, I have no idea what I'm talking about with this stuff, despite what has been explained to me and what I've read for myself. There are so many factors in it all, I have a hard time internalizing and trusting anyone could correctly diagnose my issues.
I've been less than my best in treating my mental health issues, for one reason or another, but it hasn't been ruled out that my depression was situational and it was suggested by two different therapists that I consider medication (though, the second thought I am bipolar; I have yet to see the recommended 3rd professional to get a yay or nay on exhibiting signs of bipolar). It can be debilitating, if that is in fact what I had/have, just the same as "real"/severe depression.
But, to be honest, I have no idea what I'm talking about with this stuff, despite what has been explained to me and what I've read for myself. There are so many factors in it all, I have a hard time internalizing and trusting anyone could correctly diagnose my issues.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways, all my underdogs.
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One night at work, (remember that I work in an acute psychiatric unit? good.) we were sitting around diagnosing each other with mental disorders and coming up with funny past psychiatric histories for each person, and they decided to give me MDD. I guess I looked at them funny, but then they said, "Well, I don't mean to upset you but your affect is just so flat sometimes."
Yay, I'm a llama again!
Bob,
What is with today? Maybe I'm more tired than I thought or maybe it's some sort of PMS based sensitivity but today has been one sad-causing thing said to me after another.
I went into my mom's room, when I was already a little sad, and I cuddled with her a bit while she talked to my grandma and my grandma heard me say something to the dogs, so she said, "Hi, Wea*." I said hello. She then says, "I love you, gorgeous" and I didn't respond to that. She keeps calling me that and I know she's full of s***, so I don't rise to that bait. No thanks, even. No acknowledgment means she doesn't win. Anyway, the call dropped, after a few minutes she calls back and starts rambling to my mom about sarcasm, disrespect, stubbornness, my cousins, my dad, and then back to me. At which point she says, thinking I left the room, "I don't think she believes me when I tell her that. *pause* She's no beauty but if I had to deal with all three of my granddaughters being sarcastic to me, I couldn't take it." My mom stayed silent; I guess she didn't know what to say. My grandma finally took the hint and asked, "What, is she still hearing me?"
Well, no s*** I don't believe her when she tells me that. When has she ever thought I was pretty? Her mother told her she was ugly and she always thought my mom was pretty but not me and she's never let me forget it.
She's not wrong and I guess I don't want to be lied to but there are just some things you don't say, even if they're true, because they're still hurtful.
*still hate this babied version of a shortened version of my name. UH LEE UH, say it with me.
What is with today? Maybe I'm more tired than I thought or maybe it's some sort of PMS based sensitivity but today has been one sad-causing thing said to me after another.
I went into my mom's room, when I was already a little sad, and I cuddled with her a bit while she talked to my grandma and my grandma heard me say something to the dogs, so she said, "Hi, Wea*." I said hello. She then says, "I love you, gorgeous" and I didn't respond to that. She keeps calling me that and I know she's full of s***, so I don't rise to that bait. No thanks, even. No acknowledgment means she doesn't win. Anyway, the call dropped, after a few minutes she calls back and starts rambling to my mom about sarcasm, disrespect, stubbornness, my cousins, my dad, and then back to me. At which point she says, thinking I left the room, "I don't think she believes me when I tell her that. *pause* She's no beauty but if I had to deal with all three of my granddaughters being sarcastic to me, I couldn't take it." My mom stayed silent; I guess she didn't know what to say. My grandma finally took the hint and asked, "What, is she still hearing me?"
Well, no s*** I don't believe her when she tells me that. When has she ever thought I was pretty? Her mother told her she was ugly and she always thought my mom was pretty but not me and she's never let me forget it.
She's not wrong and I guess I don't want to be lied to but there are just some things you don't say, even if they're true, because they're still hurtful.
*still hate this babied version of a shortened version of my name. UH LEE UH, say it with me.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways, all my underdogs.
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Thanks. *hugs Steph*
She's not blind, she just thinks cruelty and honesty are the same and feels like it's necessary to tell me more than once when I heard her the first one hundred times. Honestly, what does she expect me to do? I can't change my face (barring surgery).
Bah. Ruined my whole day. I have been going down some ugly roads, no puns or other cheap jokes intended, and feel like s***.
She's not blind, she just thinks cruelty and honesty are the same and feels like it's necessary to tell me more than once when I heard her the first one hundred times. Honestly, what does she expect me to do? I can't change my face (barring surgery).
Bah. Ruined my whole day. I have been going down some ugly roads, no puns or other cheap jokes intended, and feel like s***.
So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways, all my underdogs.
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