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and yes. I knwo I'm double posting.

It's 4:36am
I tried to go to bed at 1. Couldn't sleep so I put on a movie (Lucky Number Slevin - awesome movie). Movie's over and still can't sleep...

I just lie here and stare at the cieling
Thinking about nothingness....contemplating it and what exactly it is....thinking about the empty space we call nothingness and how it relates to the sapce inside my mind, heart, and soul...

I need to get out more...

3:13 and i'm still wide awake.

At this time of the morning, even the internet is boring.

4:10am and through the magic of the internet, I have now seen a low quality taping of Wicked.

I have to see this live.

I haven't slept in 15 hours. Not a big deal.

By the earliest time I will conceivably sleep, it will more than 24.

That's obnoxious. But I'm not really tired.[/i]

My sleeplessness lasted about 42 hours before I passed out last night.

It's 4:15AM

I went to bed precisely 3 hours ago.
*sigh*

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I seem to be the person who posts here most often...

I'm here.

I passed out completely exhausted (shaking, tears, and all) at 10. And now I've woken up completely at 2. And I'll have to be up at 5.30 for work. Joy.

this is the 5th night in a row i've fallen asleep for one hour and then woken up and been unable to go back to sleep. all. night. long.

i am SO tired and no matter what i do i can't fall back asleep! this is miserable...

So...the hellish world of insomnia. For me, the inveterate drug taker, I'm just in search of the most effective drug to keep me asleep all night. And clearly that hasn't happened yet. Let's list what I've tried so far, yes?

Ambien - gave me hallucinations while fully awake
Seroquel - worked for awhile then stopped and gave me RLS
Lyrica - FDA approved for nerve pain, thought it might help migraines and sleep...but no
Trazadone (Deseryl) - the latest, don't know yet but the first 4 nights aren't good

And then there are the PRN (as needed) drugs in my repository which also help knock me out in a pinch: Zanaflex (muscle relaxant), Klonapin (like valium), Fioricet (headache drug with barbiturates), and good old Benadryl (the active ingredient in Tylenol PM (or any PM).

These are in addition to my regular daily drugs of Lexapro (anti-d), Topamax (anti-epileptic, for migraine prevention), Allegra and Zyrtec-D (allergies).

Did you all enjoy that little pharmaceutical excursion? You can see why I refrain from drinking alcohol. I don't think my liver could take it.

5:18am and i'm still awake.

: (

It's now 6:40 in the morning... I've been up since noon. Crazy as it may seem, this is actually entirely voluntary. At 9 this morning, clubs can reserve rooms to use during the year, on a first come first serve basis, so we (we being the Anime club) camped out. We had someone here at 7:40am yesterday... and we still weren't the first ones here! Some A Capella group got here ahead of us.

Anyways, we're all going crazy, but most of the anime club is also in the gaming club, so we had plenty of games to play (like Arkham Horror, wherein Cthulhu and various demons are trying to destroy the world).

I have the Llama song running through my head...

And for those of you playing "The Game", I lost... and now so did you...

good ni... I mean, good morning

I was woken up at 1 something by a mouse trap going off (2nd one caught in as many nights) and now it's 3:30 and I still can't sleep. I'm off of the trazadone and not on any sleep medicine right now. But since I woke up and can't sleep I've taken a muscle relaxant and then a klonopin, so that should do the trick soon...

Work is gonna be a bitch tomorrow, I can tell you that much.

Having lots of work to do + liking to do that work + a good video game being played behind me = I'm going to be very tired tomorrow.

Some days I feel lucky that I work nights.

It's a funny time to be an insomniac, I know, but I'm really annoyed at being awake at this hour.

Argh. I went to bed by midnight hoping to sleep before work, but so far no luck....this is frustrating.

It's 3am I must be lonely...

Yea, i'm up.

: (

It doesn't really count but I woke up at 3:30 to study. And that sad thing is, that hasn't been an uncommon occurrence over the past coule months. I don't even know what it would be like to take an exam on more than 5 hours sleep, and it's usually only 3-4!

It's going on 4:30am and I'm still up.

I go to bed between midnight and 1 most nights, and from then until whenever I fall asleep, I watch 2-3 episodes of CSI repeats simultaneously, across 3-4 hours. You could say I watch 8-10 hours worth of television a night.

3.44 and I'm still only just reaching half-way done my paper which is due tomorrow. I am so screwed.

Augh I cannot sleep!

I'm hungry and I'm tired and I can't sleep and I feel sick and I have to work tonight. Worst day in a long time.

I have returned to my brain child. Hoorah.

I will say this much: a lot has changed since I've left apparently. I probably need someone to fill me in...

Erg.. 4am and I'm still not tired. This from being about ready to fall over around 11pm.

Its 4 AM Where you are Rei? Man, its only 2 here. I can never sleep before 5 AM. I work from 4 till midnight, stay up till five, sleep till 1 and then Im up in time to have a shower and hop the bus to work. what a fun cycle.

in regard to this:

I also have a tendancy to not want to change the date until I sleep. So right now it's still thursday the 26th and will be for a couple more hours until I go to bed. As far as I'm concerned, it won't be friday the 27th until I wake up in the afternoon.

I do the exact same thing. Even though i work till midnight, its not the next day till after ive slept. Your not alone Mobius. (wow, we could almost form a support group)

I usually have to be functional at least by 9am to get to classes and such, so the whole being up this late is not conducive to my obligations. Trying to get on a schedule for work on Saturday when I have to be up at 7.30am is going to be a real pain. Fortunately I have nothing tomorrow. I had planned to go to church for noon, but that is quite a lot less likely, now, unless I don't go to sleep at all.

Yesterday I saw the sunrise and though "hmm, maybe I should go to sleep".

That's pretty well an everyday thing for me.

For the past few weeks, I have not been able to sleep for more than 4-5 hours.

It was fine when I thought that it was just due to stress of the impending match. But now, when I'm sick and tired and not stressed about the match, it is ridiculous and irritating.

I miss sleep. I miss it a lot. I miss using sleep as a primary coping tool.

Its 4 AM Where you are Rei? Man, its only 2 here.

He's two timezones ahead of you.

Silly Lethbridge person.

That's pretty well an everyday thing for me.

Yeah, see, I'm trying to make that not happen. Everyone who's awake send me telepathic messages in two hours to go to sleep.