Dear Diary/Journal/Bob 3.0

[Gravity Defier]

*Rei-hugs* It's good to have you back but I'm sorry it's under those circumstances. How sad for his family and friends.

[Rei]

Thanks. The funeral was good--as good as one can be when a 22-year-old dies. They had his sword on top of his coffin, which was thoroughly fitting. We then had a toast of mead at the reception and wrote memories of him on rubber ducks which will be released in the campus pond.

[VelvetElvis]

Bob,

Yesterday, I felt good for the first time in over two years. I felt like a person again. Unfortunately, it was substance induced. A legal and prescribed substance, but substance no less.

-H.E.

[Luet]

I'm really glad that you decided to take something to help with whatever depression was going on. And I'm so happy that it seems to be working!

[VelvetElvis]

It was actually valium for an (assumed) inner ear thing.

[Luet]

Oops! That's what I get for assuming.

[starlooker]

Dear Bob,

Donny saw a job advertised in the weekend paper that we're both really excited about. It's perfect. Benefits, likely decent pay, and pretty much exactly like the job he had up in ND for three years before the recession hit. It's the first job we've seen that he's been excited about since then. That in itself is so good to see. They're taking applications and interviews tomorrow, and he's planning to get up early and go. We're hoping so hard. We really need something like this right now.

[Jayelle]

I'll be thinking of you guys!!

[powerfulcheese04]

Dear Bob,

Oh God. I am in total meltdown and it is still 10 days away.

[Gravity Defier]

*fingers crossed for the starlookers and hugs for the cheese*

If you don't mind my asking, Kim, 10 days until what?

[powerfulcheese04]

Until Nate's 4 day bachelor party in Vegas. I just hate pretty much everything about it.

[Jayelle]

Until Nate's 4 day bachelor party in Vegas. I just hate pretty much everything about it.

FOUR days? I now understand much better why you're so annoyed.


...Wil's in Vegas. Maybe he can arrange some sort of "accident" that sends Nate home early (but doesn't damage him permanently).

[powerfulcheese04]

Yeah.. Thursday-Sunday. His best friend, who I despise will be there. (Though, we've talked about that and I feel better about it... mostly.) It leaves me with both dogs for the first week of the most time intensive rotation in the hospital (Neurology routinely has 15 hour days...)

So, i'm just annoyed. I mean, I had a bachelorette party... but it was one evening, and it didn't even interupt our normal weekend plans...

[Rei]

Dear Bob,

I'm tired of feeling anxious. Can it please go away soon?

~Rei

[thoughtreader]

Dear bob,
Mt ex-stepdad died. he passed away on August 2nd. I helped burry him yesterday and sat shiva at his house with family and close friends after. We also celebrated shabbat using his prayer book and his favorite prayers. It was strange hearing them in someone else's voice.I really miss him already and know i will only miss him more as time passes.
I feel lucky that i was able to extend my trip to NY 2 times to stay and be with the family through this terrible time. We have a good strong family full of love, as my half sister pointed out, "only in our family would Lynn's late husband's ex-wife's ex-husband send fruit flowers" when looking at and consuming the edible arraignments my dad sent. We may be an odd bunch but we are all connected by love.
He is going to leave a hole in all our hearts and lives.
I miss him
Teresa

[Jayelle]

I'm so sorry Teresa. *hugs*

[steph]

Your family sounds awesome, Teresa. I'm sorry for your loss. *hugs*

[Gravity Defier]

Your family sounds awesome, Teresa. I'm sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Exactly that. *hugs*

[Jayelle]

Bob,

So, 8 months after my Grandpa passed away, my Grandma is very close to dying as well. My dad called me to say it is likely to be any day now.
I really wish I could have seen her one last time, but it seems like it's not to be.
It's hard. To lose both Grandparents, who I was very close to, in the same year is really sucky.
But, I get it. She didn't really want to hang on after he was gone.
At least this time, nothing is stopping me from going to the funeral. The girls and I will fly out when it happens.

JL

[Luet]

I'm so sorry, Jan. *hugs*

[Gravity Defier]

*hugs* I can't even imagine. I'm sorry.

[Eaquae Legit]

*real big hugs for Jan and Teresa*

I'm so sorry.

[Jayelle]

She's gone now. Passed away on the eve of her 90th birthday. Now she can celebrate with Grandpa.

...

And, completely selfishly, I'm completely stressed about flying solo with 2 kids.

[VelvetElvis]

*hugs*

[Gravity Defier]

Is it awful to think it's sweet that she had a hard time being without your grandpa? It's still sad to lose her, though. *hugs*

I'm not sure selfish is the word I'd go with, for the flying worries.

[Jayelle]

Is it awful to think it's sweet that she had a hard time being without your grandpa? It's still sad to lose her, though. *hugs*

I think it is too. I can really imagine it being hard to go on after the person you've been with for 60 years is gone.
In fact, Paul and I joke about saying "1,2,3 Die!" when we get really old. But I never really thought about how that would effect my kids/grandkids.

[starlooker]

**hugs Theresa and Jan**

Jan, I remember how it was when my Dad's parents died within months of each other. You're definitely in my thoughts.

And it is not selfish. You are grieving, under emotional strain, and about to have to negotiate travelling with a baby and a toddler. It's natural to be stressed about that. That's a difficult thing to do under the best of circumstances, which these are not.

[Eaquae Legit]

*hugs for Jan again*

[Luet]

*hugs for Jan and Theresa*

I lost three of my four grandparents during the first year of marriage, one to suicide. It was really difficult, although I can't imagine having to travel with children to the funerals. I have one grandmother left and I try to enjoy her as much as possible while we still have her with us.

[Young Val]

:::Hugs for Jan and Teresa:::

[Eaquae Legit]

If either of you feel like telling stories, I'd love to read about these people that have been a part of your lives. (This is how I deal with loss, although it's not for everyone. But to me, it makes them be alive just a little bit more, since the stories aren't just in my own head, if that makes sense.) NO PRESSURE.

[powerfulcheese04]

Dear Bob,

I am having a terrible, no good, very bad week. And it's only Tuesday.

My rotation sucks. We have at most one appointment a day, and multiple days with no appointments. Yet, somehow, we still have to get there at 7 and leave no earlier than 5:30.

I have a horrific urinary tract infection. The doctor looked at my UA and said "woah." It's just SO f****** UNCOMFORTABLE!

I'm still upset at Nate for going to Vegas. Upset about the trip in general and mad that he chose to go knowing it would make me upset. I'm mad that he's so sketchy on the details and annoyed that I want to know them.

I'm just, in general, upset and run down and cranky.

[steph]

*hugs for Kim*

[Gravity Defier]

*Kim-hugs*

[steph]

Dear Bob and pweb,

Anyone want to feel old today? Do you remember when Tyler was born? Well, he's 6 today!

P.S. To the pregnant ones, yes, this will be here before you can believe it.