Complete Randomness

[Gravity Defier]

I have discovered that, as with most things that aren't my favorite thing to do, letting me listen to my MP3 player makes it tolerable or even fun. This applies to grocery shopping.

Something I saw while shopping:




I'm not using anything named gorilla boogers on my hair. Same for anything with the word "squizz" on it.

[starlooker]

A Dozen of Kirsten's Random Thoughts While Waiting:

1. I can't get the song from 1776 out of my head. The one that starts, "We're waiting for the chirp, chirp, chirp of an eaglet being born." Occasionally the theme from Jeopardy takes its place, but it always goes back.

2. Pumpkin spice latte's rule my world. I'm not drinking much caffeine these days, or much Starbucks, but it's the first day that's felt like fall, so I decided to splurge on a half-caf. YAY.

3. We should start a club on pweb. One for people who have significant others who don't really know much about pweb, just enough to look mystified or resigned when we get excited about limeade or whatever.

(I'm sort of explaining more about it to Donny as I go along. For example, he's known about Ali for awhile now. But pweb has been like a pseudo-interactive diary to me for years, and while I haven't written anything I'd care if he read since we moved in together, I wrote plenty before that. And, also, it's just nice to have a space that's mine.)

4. Kelly, I was driving back from Starbucks, eating pumpkin bread, and I thought about you. Because, these days, it's AMAZING how much better food tastes, how much MORE it tastes. It's just awesome. I feel like Angel in "I Will Remember You" where he becomes human and is just crazy about how food tastes. And, I figure, if this is happening to a non-foodie like me, someday, when it's your turn, your mind is going to be positively blown if you get this effect, given how much you love and appreciate food already.

5. Okay, what was I thinking when I ordered that shirt? Holy psychodelic mumuu mama, Batman. I mean, the fit isn't horrible, but, oh, yikes. This is officially now my shirt-to-wear-when-I-have-no-other-respectable-shirts-that-are-remotely-close-to-clean. At least it was on a serious sale.

6. And at least my new hoodie rocks. And this is the perfect weather for it.

7. And why can I not eat anything without spilling it on myself? (Said after discovering pumpkin seed in cleavage.)

8. Should I try to clean off the desk today? That'd be a good project, because then there would be room around the sewing machine and I can get started on making my first sewing machine project. (A simple purse.) But that would be wo--ooork.

9. I'm totally jealous of Teresa's avatar. Glow-in-the-dark kitteh for the WIN.

10. Please, please, please, Reece. Please don't have another UTI problem. I thought those were gone since we switched you over to wet food. Oh, crap, is it the treats from football?

11. Hm. I could maybe use this shirt to practice sewing on if it turns out I hate it that much. Or, who knows, maybe it'll grow on me? At least there's enough room in the chest, not counting the seam that's too high, and ample room in the tummy for awhile. But, you know, it's good to have options and not feel like I've totally wasted money if I don't want to wear it. Or, there's always consignment.

12. OOoh. English muffin with cream cheese would go well with pumpkin-spice latte. Toaster-time!

[VelvetElvis]

Jared only sort of knows pweb. He knows OF pweb. He knows that I mail things. He doesn't really understand the awesome that is pweb.

[LilBee91]

I have occasionally thought how, whenever I get a significant significant other, I shall explain this place too him. Hopefully I'm not one who will mysteriously vanish from the board. But I can't decide whether I'll want him to join it or not.

[thoughtreader]

3. We should start a club on pweb. One for people who have significant others who don't really know much about pweb, just enough to look mystified or resigned when we get excited about limeade or whatever.

Chris doesn't get pweb much. he knows I have friends here, and that I want to meet some in October in Portland. But he wants to come to make sure I don't get killed or something.

9. I'm totally jealous of Teresa's avatar. Glow-in-the-dark kitteh for the WIN.

[Jayelle]

Man, I can't imagine if Paul had an internet place that I didn't stalk as well. I guess we're just that kind of a couple. We have to know everything about each other's business.

[Young Val]

3. We should start a club on pweb. One for people who have significant others who don't really know much about pweb, just enough to look mystified or resigned when we get excited about limeade or whatever.

(I'm sort of explaining more about it to Donny as I go along. For example, he's known about Ali for awhile now. But pweb has been like a pseudo-interactive diary to me for years, and while I haven't written anything I'd care if he read since we moved in together, I wrote plenty before that. And, also, it's just nice to have a space that's mine.)

David doesn't really know about Pweb. He knows about it, in that he sees me on it all the time. He knows that I have met many of you. He knows I mailed and received gifts for the Handmade Gift Exchange. He doesn't really know I met you all via the internet. I think he assumes you're "real-life" (sorry, Alea, I know you hate that) friends that I now keep in touch with on a private forum due to distance? I had him read ENDER'S GAME earlier this year and he really, really liked it. Still, I will never tell him to join up here, and I'd discourage him from joining if he found it on his own. (Not that he would; it's not his thing). Not because there are things I want to keep from him on here, but, like Kirsten said, I have very much used Pweb as an interactive diary. I have not always been my best self here. And while David knows about every single thing that I've ever wrote about on here, my telling him about it and being open and honest with that information is different from him going in and reading all my old Bob posts, or whatever is left lying around in the breakup thread about the whole Henry fiasco. It's a level of privacy we maintain in our relationship. If David ever asked to know more, I'd tell him. If he wanted to join despite my discouragement, well, then he would. We do not deliberately keep things from each other in our relationship, and we do not lie. We are, instead, the guardians of each others' solitude.

And David has actually met a Pwebber. He met Janelle when we were all still living in New York.

4. Kelly, I was driving back from Starbucks, eating pumpkin bread, and I thought about you. Because, these days, it's AMAZING how much better food tastes, how much MORE it tastes. It's just awesome. I feel like Angel in "I Will Remember You" where he becomes human and is just crazy about how food tastes. And, I figure, if this is happening to a non-foodie like me, someday, when it's your turn, your mind is going to be positively blown if you get this effect, given how much you love and appreciate food already.

I am so excited that you are enjoying food. I am so excited you referenced Angel (which I am currently rewatching). I am so excited about pumpkin bread. And I am so, so excited and hopeful that I'll get to experience these sensations in a few years!

[LilBee91]

And David has actually met a Pwebber. He met Janelle when we were all still living in New York.

Man, that means he's more real than me. And he's not even on the board. But I guess there are a lot of people who fit that category.

[starlooker]

There was a post here, but I meant to quote it and then ended up editing it. See post further down in the thread for the reason I was quoting it. Ooops.

[Luet]

Mark knows all about pweb and always has (since being married came first) but I'm glad he has no desire to come here. He thinks it's one of my weird nerdy things, like when I went to Endercon. I don't think I've written anything that he doesn't know but mostly I think he wouldn't approve of how much I share with "strangers" on the internet. At least I write it here and not on facebook! And he is also "real" since v-girl came to visit and stayed at our house on two occasions.

[Noodle]

Angie knows about PWeb, probably because I wore the heck out of my PWeb shirts. She doesn't really know I'm back. and I don't think she's ever been on the site. But I don't have anything to hide. I haven't posted much overly personal here (at least on this iteration) so if she found it, I wouldn't care.

I don't think she has interest in spying on me in that way though, so I'm not hiding it, but I'm not advertising it either.

[Gravity Defier]

I think the difference for me is, I don't see here as an interactive diary. It's like one big love letter; to you all, to myself (I hope that doesn't come across poorly but eh if it does), to what has been in my life, is, and will be.

There is nothing, absolutely nothing, that I have written that I wouldn't be okay with someone in the SO role seeing (family and local friends, different story). As is usual with me, I'd be embarrassed but that's about it.


I can't really say why, because I don't know, haven't thought about it hard enough and really have been shooting from the hip, but I'd be hurt if someone I loved on that level didn't want to be a part of it, even on a superficial, posts once every blue moon sort of way. This place is important to me and because it feels like such an extension of who I am (or what I hold dear to me, not sure what the difference is in some ways), I want it recognized, known about, and in a way, investigated.

That's why, to me, it would be hiding or lying. A dude has a lot to worry about how important he is to me if he doesn't know about this place.

[starlooker]

You know, Alea, that really makes sense to me.

I mean, it makes sense to me regarding you, as much as I know you. (Not regarding anyone else's handling of pweb/SO's.) Heck, now that you mention it, I'd almost be hurt if you didn't introduce an important SO to pweb

(Not that you shouldn't feel free to change your mind if/when it comes down to it.)

I think another part of it is that, for me, I've ALWAYS compartmentalized my friends and relationships and get terribly freaked out and nervous whenever any of the compartments overlap. I mean, in North Dakota, I had my graduate school friends and my non-school friends, and none of them met at all until my going away party. Even though they vaguely knew about each other. I don't know why I'm like that, exactly. It's not that one compartment is any more important than another -- I love people dearly in all compartments -- it's just how I manage things, I guess.

Still, I'd like to meet so many of you, someday (and some Denver people I would love to meet again), and I'd plan for Donny to be at least part of pretty much any meet-ups I would have. But even that's way different than having him read what I write here.

(Also, please don't get the impression from the "interactive diary" comment that the people here aren't important to me. That's certainly not the sum total of it, and people here are very real to me. I do consider my pweb friends to be my friends. )

[zeroguy]

nervous whenever any of the compartments overlap

You gotta keep your worlds separate!

It should probably be no surprise that I sympathize :) Even not counting online people, I do that all the time, although it tends to just... happen, without me trying to do it, really.

[VelvetElvis]

I changed the email address associated with my account, and then it told me my account was rendered inactive by the change. Even though all I had to to was confirm my email, I still very nearly cried.

[Young Val]

I think another part of it is that, for me, I've ALWAYS compartmentalized my friends and relationships and get terribly freaked out and nervous whenever any of the compartments overlap. I mean, in North Dakota, I had my graduate school friends and my non-school friends, and none of them met at all until my going away party. Even though they vaguely knew about each other. I don't know why I'm like that, exactly. It's not that one compartment is any more important than another -- I love people dearly in all compartments -- it's just how I manage things, I guess.

I do this, to a lesser extent, but it reminds me so forcibly of a quote from My So-Called Life:

"What I, like, dread is when people who know you in completely different ways end up in the same area. You have to develop this, like, combination you on the spot."

[Jayelle]

Randomness:

I bought a bunch of DVDs at a Blockbuster store-closing this week. They were awesomely cheap. I looked at them when I got home and laughed because I got:

Superman
Superman II
Superman III
Superman IV: The Quest for Peace
Hellboy II
X-Men
X-Men 2
V for Vendetta

and

...Fiddler on the Roof.

One of these things is seriously not like the others.

[VelvetElvis]

I forgive you.

[Gravity Defier]

(Also, please don't get the impression from the "interactive diary" comment that the people here aren't important to me.

You don't do all day refresh-athons for people who don't matter. :)

I only jumped back in to the discussion because I felt like maybe I made other people feel like I was accusing them of not being honest with their SOs or whathaveyou. You hit it right on the head for me, Kirsten, when you made the disclaimer that a lot of what each of us are saying is applicable only to ourselves. Which is great; we're all different people.

Also, I'm not going to harp on it (at least, not at the moment), mostly because this whole line of thought is making me think about things I hadn't given much consideration to, but I also compartmentalize people in my life. As I stated above, I do not consider family or local friends to be people I would want to know about Pweb and yet, for them, it doesn't feel like I'm hiding or lying. I don't know how it works. I shall overthink it, though I probably won't report back in with the results.

[starlooker]

It's easy to overthink, I found myself teetering on the cliff of overthinking my compartmentalization issues when I pulled myself back with a firm, "Let's not go there right now, shall we?"

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Random: I wish pweb had a "Like" button. For some reason, this morning, I keep wanting to "Like" posts and then remember that, "HEY! Wrong medium!"

[steph]

Yeah, sometimes it's easier to just say "Yeah! Like!" then to think of a real response.

My randomness: Brian bought a 7 ft tavern table with 4 chairs. It is AWESOME! It was only a hundred bucks. But now I have to find somewhere to store it until we move into a house big enough for it.

[VelvetElvis]

Where are you storing it right now?

[steph]

It's currently in my dad's truck. Brian's planning on using it at my parent's house tomorrow for our pirate party. After that, we're going to take the legs off and try and get them and the chairs in our crawlspace and we're trying to figure out how to secure the top along the side wall of our garage.

[CezeN]

You know your dance teacher is awesome when he jokes about us spontaneously jumping around like monkeys - when he says a codeword - when a university tour groups passes by our room, in the gym.

And then, a week later, gives the signal and starts jumping up and down like an orangutan... to the hilarious confusion of the gawking people who are being shown our wonderful University.

[starlooker]

Me, too, for you! (Seriously. If you get this effect, I will desperately wish to like, mind-meld with you for a day or something, because you are so much better equipped to enjoy it and cook to it.)

Pineapple right now is the new flavor sensation. If there ever was a proof that there is a God who loves humanity, it is the existence of pineapple. And oranges. And fruit smoothies. And peanut butter on toasted English muffins.

Scratch this. Screw food. Oh my gosh. Now that it's happening for the second trimester in a row, I have realized it's a pattern. Food becomes amazingly wonderful right before the hunger pains get to a point of being completely out of control, but even though you're hungry you don't want to eat and absolutely nothing tastes good anymore.

*frustrated with her body*

[LilBee91]

0:38 is me right now. Yay for having a very very scratchy voice!

[locke]

I think the difference for me is, I don't see here as an interactive diary. It's like one big love letter; to you all, to myself (I hope that doesn't come across poorly but eh if it does), to what has been in my life, is, and will be.

(Also, please don't get the impression from the "interactive diary" comment that the people here aren't important to me. That's certainly not the sum total of it, and people here are very real to me. I do consider my pweb friends to be my friends. )

The big secret is that pweb is fully ractive and we're all just ractors taking part in someone's story/world, we're paid from the trust fund of some mysteriously mysterious benefactor (ala Magwitch).

[starlooker]

The big secret is that pweb is fully ractive and we're all just ractors taking part in someone's story/world, we're paid from the trust fund of some mysteriously mysterious benefactor (ala Magwitch).

But who? Whose story or world? And who is the mysteriously mysterious benefactor gracing my world with the presence of pwebbers? (I ask that last question because, since no one is paying me out of any trust fund, I'm assuming it's my story/world even as I am modestly asking the first question).

[locke]

just how far down the rabbit hole do you want to go, Investigator Starlooker?

[starlooker]

All the way. All the way.

[LilBee91]

All the way. All the way.

That's what she said.

[steph]

Hahaha!

[VelvetElvis]

I am blessed with eyebrows that don't need any plucking or waxing.

[Luet]

That IS awesome. I definitely have to do some plucking, though at least I'll never have to fill in with a pencil or anything...they are plenty full.

[Jayelle]

I am blessed with eyebrows that don't need any plucking or waxing.

Me too.