Well, this past weekend I did ask David to move in with me now rather than later. And he said no.
I'm a little disappointed, of course I am. As Harry concludes his speech in the greatest romantic comedy of all time "When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
We had a long, cozy, wonderful talk. And we revisited all of the reasons we originally were going to wait until 2010 to move in together anyway, and decided that those reasons were still valid, and it would all definitely be worth the wait.
It's hard. Even though he lives just a fifteen minute walk away, some times it feels much further. I've fallen into a way of joking about how I feel like the child of divorced parents all over again: all of my things are split up between two houses.
The talk helped immensely, though it didn't have the outcome that I wanted. I'm reassured that our future plans are more solid than ever. I feel closer to my boy for having confessed and confided in him and seeing him cherish those secret thoughts and wishes. I am more aware now than ever of how lucky I am. And I fall more in love each day.
I just finished my annual reread of LITTLE WOMEN and of course came upon a quote that helped me (though it IS about entirely the wrong romance!)
"Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first, because, even for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can you forgive that, and be happy while we hope and wait?"
"Yes, I know I can, for we love one another, and that makes all the rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work. I couldn't enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so there's no need of hurry or impatience. You can do your part out West, I can do mine here, and both be happy hoping for the best."
No need of hurry and impatience; I can be happy while we hope and wait.