Dear You 2.0

[Confessions]

Dear You,

I think you are a douchebag

--Confessions

[Gravity Defier]

Dear you,
I am pretending that was to one very specific, non-me person.
-G D



Dear You,
You know...*cues music medley* I don't like you, but I love you...and I'm your puppet...because you are the wind beneath my wings.

Or something like that. Just so you know, I appreciate you way more than I ever tell you.

Love,Alea

[Wil]

Dear You,

I wish magic/the Force really existed, but since it doesn't, I settle for pretending I can open automatic doors;

Who says it doesn't? Not only do we know that any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic but we also know that there is still so much we DON'T know. Don't give up hope yet!

Wil

[Gravity Defier]

Dear You,
I'm pretty sure you told me to watch Big Bang Theory. If it was you, I have watched 4 episodes with my brother (who will be lending me a copy when I leave Thursday morning) and I love it. Not really like Scrubs, but still good in its own, geeky way. Sheldon is flippin' awesome. Smart people are awesome.

Alea

Dear you,
Go to bed. You're sleepy.

-Yourself

[Eaquae Legit]

Dear You,

At times you are so incredibly hypocritical that I barely know how to talk to you. Don't go giving me a hard time for grousing about being kept awake at night by an unexpected nightclub on a conference trip when you throw a fit if someone closes a door too loud and wakes you from an afternoon nap at home.

Unbelievable.

[Gravity Defier]

Dear you,
While I was at home and somewhat had the luxury of taking my time online -my grandma liked to disturb that...-I noticed you haven't posted in a while. What gives? Playing too much WoW or whatever it is that you play? Anyway, a completely disturbing dream that I think you will find amusing: In this dream of mine, I was really wanting to watch porn so I called you and asked you to make me a DVD of the stuff I'd like. Maybe too many MacPorn jokes, eh?

-Mexican

Dear you,
Yes, a call is really long overdue because I miss you, too! I've actually been trying to get out from the watchful eye that is my parents and grandma for the past few days so I can call. I'm aiming for a call by the end of the week. *nods*

-Twinny <3

Dear you,
*loves*

Just because I do.

-Lea

[Wil]

Dear You,

I believe, after trying to work it out out all these months, that I have finally figured it out. You said that I should have waited and that I should have just, overall, approached the situation differently. On the latter, towards the end, we can agree, but as for the former; all I did was wait. I waited and waited for you to make up your mind; for you to figure it out. I waited all through you breaking up with him, without a word from you. I waited through the summer as you dated that guy, without a word from you. I could not have been more patient. You must just not have been interested at all, for I gave you the space and I gave you the option to talk to me; to be honest with me. I simply drew the short straw and of course I dislike that. My timing, as always, couldn't have been worse. I said it isn't fair, and it indeed isn't, but I could not have approached it differently up until the bitter end. You could have.

You must not understand me. I am not one to easily make what I consider a friend. I talk to one person regularly. Ninety percent of my day I spend in my own company. I only have perhaps two or three people I consider a friend, but I rarely talk to them. None of them are women. It is not like me to just go out and find someone else to get close to. You were the first to show me any kind of... passion. You were the first woman that I ever openly and easily spoke with beyond just a simple, passing, conversation. The first to mail, and phone. You remain the only woman that I have ever even considered saying I loved. You were quite important to me; you remain quite important to me. I envy your ability to just find guys, flirt with them, and have them clamour for your attention. It must be quite nice indeed to have so many options to attract your attention. It must be quite nice to have such new emotion to cover the old. That is not like me, however. I refuse to just find someone new to set my emotions on. If only you could see from my eyes; perhaps then you would understand. That I was never given the light of day; I was the morning glory that tried to grow below the thicket - I never saw the sun and thus I never got to bloom and share my beauty in the morning sun. I waited and I waited for the thicket to clear - for the sun to reach my needy buds - but by the time the thicket was cleared I had been crushed by the aftermath.

I've been so beat up over the past year because it was such a treat getting to know you - to have someone that I believe cared for me at one time. Having never known that before, it was quite surprising to me to feel it. To know that I could evoke such emotion and such feeling in someone else. I've been so beat up because, now that you're gone, I feel so alone. Being depressed is my last bit of connection to you. I'd rather remain depressed and still have that connection, than just move on and live with returning to being a lonely soul.

The worst thing in all of this is these words will be wasted now. They mean nothing to you, and definitely nothing to anyone else that will read them. In my mind, these words represent all the truth and emotion I can pour in to them - all the truth and emotion in my world - but to others they are just pixels on a screen. Oh how I wish I could convey the emotion I feel, the truth of words that I know, in to these simple little pixels. For if I could do that, I know surly that the emotion you say you have forgotten, the emotion that is lost in the pain, would shine through bright and true. Alas, this is my fate. If only my words could stir to action my deepest wishes. Such a cruel beast, she is, being so immovable. Fate, you bitch, how you betray me.

Sincerely, Wil

Dear Yourself,

It seems that at 5:09 am you are a sappy monster with words. Rawr.

[VelvetElvis]

Dear You,

I hadn't realized the big Day was so fast approaching until I saw your status on facebook, and then your post in the Dark Knight thread. Babies make me excited!

[shadow-petra]

dear you,

what were we, when we were over there? Maybe I'm just overreacting and the environment was different, but I miss it.

-Me

[Rei]

Dear you,

You know I don't know many people in this city at all, and you know that I need to spend time with people more than I probably do. And you say that you love spending time with me, but you need a lot of alone time, especially when you are stressed. And so I try to give you that because you are my friend and I want to respect you. And then you go and post about how you had such a great time with your other friends and how it was an absolute riot and so on and so forth. And here's me, with half of my list of friends out of the country right now and the other half, you, saying you need space and alone time from everyone. It's really frustrating.

I'm glad we'll at least be going to see a film this next week.

~me

[Jayelle]

Dear Wil, Kirsten, Alea, Locke, Steph, Fred, Chico, Ed, V-girl and Luet,

Thank you so very, very much for the gift card for Squiggles! You guys are incredibly sweet and I appreciate this alot. I'll keep you informed as to what I buy with it - most likely clothes and bath stuff at this point.
Thank you all. You rock.

Jan

[locke]

[Petra456]

You could repay us with cute baby pics whe he/she arrives.

[steph]

Have fun shopping!

[Gravity Defier]

What Adam, Fred and Steph said.

[Olhado_]

Dear you,

Do you think we are ready for another meetup?

PM if you want to answer.

-All

[Eaquae Legit]

I miss you already. See you at Christmas.

-Alison

[Gravity Defier]

Dear parental units,
Please, stop. I'm just short of literally begging you.

Goose

Dear You,
I don't even know what to say or think or feel, so keep chugging along and maybe sometime this f****** year you won't hate, well, everything about your existence.

Yourself

[Jebus]

Dear You,

I'm sorry I did it, I'll always regret it. And I'm sorry I can't tell you, not for now anyway. I can't see you hurt like that, I know that's selfish, and I'm only making it worse by delaying, but I can't.

I'm sorry.

-Not Good Enough

P.S. Pretending everything is normal is hard.

[shadow-petra]

Dear You,

I'm just...so confused. You asked me to go up to Montreal with you, and I happily complied. Other than your clingy sister, who stopped us from having any gossip time alone, it was fantastic, your family was great, and I loved it! But what I am confused about is this: While we were up there, our routines and habits were a little bit more than what they were in China, but without China's atmosphere of "it's okay to touch/be close with your friends in an oddly sexual/romantic way". So what is going on? Maybe I'm just over-analyzing, but there were some situations where there was an obvious choice to go with and you chose to go the other way with me. Almost every opportunity we had, however, was shot down by your sis, so I feel like I'm at a dead end. So many things that were subtly said in front of your family that suggested so many different things, especially with what your eyes said! Not just this week, but throughout China time too.

I guess I'm just really frustrated. I don't know what to think. I've been trying to figure myself out since high school. I have never been a touchy person. After knowing the truth about my uncles, meeting the jerk in middle school, and the stalker in high school, my standards have become impossibly high, hence no boyfriend. My family isn't one to express loving feelings in that sort of way, either. We've probably hugged/cuddled with each other more than all of the people I have touched(handshakes, hugs, etc) combined! I'm probably feeling this way because of that reason. Maybe I just need touch, and you're the only one I have access to and feel comfortable enough to allow that. But I get the feeling that I'm not the one who likes the feeling either. Wanting me to continuously slip into you room in the morning while you sleep? To cuddle with you while you sleep? I thought you don't sleep well with other people in the same bed. Why do you claim you sleep better with me there? I doubt you'd be one to lie about something like that. You said you rarely lie.

From what I've seen, I'm an oddball in your close group of friends. I am—for the most part—into sports, while you're into theater. I don't party, I don't drink. You've got a tight group of friends, while I have pockets of friends all over the place. You could have easily chosen one of them to go to Montreal with you. Why me? Your sister said so herself while we were up there, that I was a bit boring. I guess what I am ultimately trying to ask is where are we?

-Maomao

[Eddie Pinz]

Dear You,

WTF? You say you needed sometime apart, which I happily gave. Well, not happily, but I gave it to you none the less. You have shown no interest in contacting me, except for 6 missed calls that I got a 3 am from a blocked number. You said that it wasn't you, but I have only two suspects and was with the other one at the time. All I wanted was to get back some stuff before you went on vacation and then back to school. I get to your house and it is like nothing changed. Aside from the fact that we didn't actually kiss, it was like we were dating again. I don't get it. I swear, you are two different people sometimes. To make matters worse is the fact that you are going on vacation and then back to school, so I have no idea the next time I will see you. Anything to make my life more complicated.

-Your Ex

[hive_king]

Dear You,

I don't want to tell her this, but you're not good enough for my baby sister. You're obnoxious, you're childish, you're nowhere near as creative as you think you are, you have no drive. I honestly can't see what she sees in you. Honestly, I only put up with you for her. There's a reason I don't dignify you with an actual name. I figure she needs to learn what not to date the hard way. Please grow the hell up.

Nick

[Petra456]

Dear you,

Um, maybe a wall in my house by the end of the week? I think that's a wonderful goal.

-Nicole


Dear you,

You're my favorite, but you already know that.

Love,
me

Dear you,

Maybe another phone call soon? It's always so much fun and I have no clue why we go so long in between! Maybe this time we can get a certain missing guy in on the call.

- Twinny

[Mich]

Dear you:

The apartment is so very lonely with just me in it, so please get here earlier than expected. Besides, your dining table won't fit into my little Subaru, so I'll need your truck before I can eat anywhere civilized.

Jeff

[Jebus]

Dear You,

I'm really sorry, but I've come to terms with the fact that I can never tell you what happened. Maybe if we had both been back home, and I would know that you would have people to support you... but not now, not when you're all alone, I can't.

I wonder if you would ever understand why I've kept this from you.

I'm sorry.

-Misplaced Trust

[Luet]

Dear you(s),
To all the boys and men out there. When dating a girl or involved in some sort of physical interaction with one, please do not ever pressure, guilt, or otherwise manipulate her into doing things she is not comfortable with. Yes, I know it is unfortunately common in society but it leads to a LOT of damage to self-esteem and functioning. And yes, girls should never do it either but that dynamic is less common.
- Trying to recover

Dear you,
You were my best friend for so long and larger than life in my eyes. And then you became my first boyfriend. It was hard for me to see it when you changed so suddenly when things became physical. For years, I excused it as 'typical'. All boys pressure girls to do things they don't want to do. But you know what? They don't. And that is why I started resenting you and eventually broke up with you.

Dear you,
I hate you. Sometimes I'm able to be bigger than that but not right now. I hate you. I confided in you about what had happened with my first boyfriend and how bad it made me feel. And then you used it against me. You "jokingly" told me what a slut I was and that if I had already done that, then why wouldn't I do *this*. I hate you. Get out of the country and out of my life.

[starlooker]

Dear You,

Many hugs and good thoughts.

Me

Dear You,

I am really going to miss you a whole lot. It seems really weird that when I move I won't be reporting to you once a week on how it's going, with tears if need be. Yes, I can get a new therapist, but it won't be you and I'll have to start all over and she'll have never heard about Dory or told me in astonishment that "you can't say 'f***' to a cat'", and that makes me sad.

I hope you're right about me.

Me

[Wind Swept]

Dear You,

I don't know how to help you. The trick with atheism is there's no telling you, "He'll be in a better place," because you don't believe in that better place. Especially with your particular brand of, The End is The End, and that's all there is to it. I happen to hope that we're in for a surprise when the curtain finally closes, but there's no telling you that.

I'm reduced to only being able to offer a shoulder to cry on, and I can't even do that, because you're several hundred miles away. It seems all I can do is owe you a hug when you get back.

This makes me horribly sad.

Chris

[daPyr0x]

Dear You,

I really like you. I think you know that, and I know you feel the same. Please stop smothering me. Please let me have space to myself. I enjoy spending time with you, I really do; but I also enjoy getting time to myself to catch up with friends back home on the computer, play video games, and do regular 'guy' stuff. I'm not going to forget about you if I don't see you for a day or two, why must you try so hard to not go 24 hours without seeing me? I want balance in my life. Time alone, time with a significant other, and time with my family and friends. Balance between the three. I just want you to understand that, and moreover, to want the same. I don't want to go down that road again, where my entire self revolves around you (and yours around me); because neither of us will ever be fulfilled in that and no matter how happy we may feel together I know what that becomes when we're apart. I am my own individual person, not some conjoined twin to you (how awkward...).

Oh, and stop thinking about the L bomb. I don't want to hear it. At all. I know it's a thought in your mind, let's just keep it that way okay?

--Cam

[Gravity Defier]

Dear You,
I don't know if you have this saved, linked, whatever, but on the off chance you don't, I give you the Harry Potter 3 thread.
For giggles and such.

-Alea

[powerfulcheese04]

That thread is amazing, Alea!

Though, my sig was OBNOXIOUS! Geeeeze.

[ender1]

Dear you,

Happy Anniversary!

Love,
Will

[Jebus]

Dear You,

I'm sorry.

[Wind Swept]

Dear You,

Every now and again, having watched When Harry Met Sally with you comes back to me. Active imagination that I have, I sometimes find myself hoping there was more purpose to that viewing than there likely was. It's both a terrifying and reassuring thought. On the one hand, there's the chance that I'll bump into you a few times over the next twenty years and eventually live happily ever after. On the other, I could be miserable for the next twenty years.

Nonetheless...

I think the first step is to simply forget you exist.

Chris

[Gravity Defier]

Dear you,
You're my hero forever.