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*hugs jan*

Is there typically a lot of crime in your area? My mom always yells at me about not locking my car/house. I have a 12 year old car also and always figure, "who would want to steal it?" But I also don't know anyone in this area who has ever had their car stolen or broken into.

i usually leave my jeep unlocked but don't keep anything in it. i've had a couple of cars broken into for stuff, and they can be rather damaged in the process of theft, but if the door is unlocked they don't break anything just to find out you have nothing. if they're going to steal the car, they're going to do it regardless of locks.

anyway. sorry for the theft, jan, that sucks.

That really sucks, Jan. It's also one of my biggest fears, i'm so paranoid about making sure it's locked and I worry all day when I have to leave it parked somewhere.

*hugs jan*

Is there typically a lot of crime in your area?

Not really that I know of, definitely not as much as where we lived in Winnipeg (though we didn't own a car there). I had noticed some broken glass recently in our parking lot that made me a bit nervous, but I had the same attitude as you "who would want our car??"

After we called the police, it didn't take them long to find it in a tow yard. The back window was smashed out and the ignition punched in, which is not much damage, but probably enough to write it off. Someone also called to say that they found our carseat abandoned in the woods, but when we tried to find the spot it wasn't there. There was a pile of wet clothes and some other stuff, so we're guessing it's a common dumping ground for stuff taken out of a stolen car.

Hey bob, it's me again,

So I tryed to be myself with this girl who I've been close to recently, got shot down. *sniff* . . . f%&k.
This intelectual standstill is messing me up pretty bad Bob. I'm a smart guy and it really pains me when I let it show and the people around me give a look of something close to disgust. So I hide it. Not my best idea I know, but it keeps me from hurting.

Bob, I need to be pushed hard to get what I want and to be the man that I am but no one has even tryed, everyone has this ohitwillbealrightjustdowhatyouwant bulls$&t attitude that is more harmful to me than anything.
Don't get me wrong that is a great attitude to have and it promotes emotional growth and stability but I'm done with it. I've learned all I can about emotions. I know how I will react and the best way to handle any emotonal turmoil that I could think of happening to me and I have the experience to back it up as well.
I need to get pushed and challenged.

Slowly dying,
Me

well, job is going great, and my relationship with my girlfriend and her kids couldn't be going better. i'm actually amazed at how great things are going. i'd say i'm waiting for the other shoe to drop if it weren't for that other thing. my whole last year has been fantastic, as well as the new year so far except that things with my ex wife have been increasingly irritating. she's getting more crazy as time goes by. which makes me appreciate georgien all the more. for how wonderfully sane she is, and supportive and caring, but also cuz she lets me gripe to her about my ex and gives me advice. it's nice to have a shoulder to laugh on. seriously, the ex has been comically crazy.

so we got our divorce. which is great. and the divorce agreement was that i stay in the house until it sells, and basically pay for everything associated with it. i'm cool with that, i love this house and intend to buy it. however. anna is unhappy and has changed her mind. she now wants to kick me out of the house and is threatening to take me to court. it's a whole thing. she also is being nuts about the market value of the house. wants it listed for 20k above fair market value. wants to take me to court about that too. realtor won't list that high.

there's quite a bit more to it, but it's late and i don't want to go into it right now. but basically a lawyer told me she can't kick me out, and she doesn't have any grounds for taking me to court since i'm not even in contempt to any point of the divorce. so basically it's frustration and time on my part.

anyway, i'm tired, and will talk to you guys later.

I put up with sexual harassment in the workplace because, as my friends say when I talk to them about it, "At least I have a job."

Dear Bob,

I got a job offer in Charlotte! The hospital they're thinking about putting me at is about 30 minutes from the house, which is acceptable. They're offering lots more money than I was expecting, which is great! The benefits are good, which is great!

Yay job! Let's just hurry up and graduate!

Congrats, Kim. Completely earned and deserved. :)

Dear Bob,

I know my friends and family here are doing the best they can to keep my spirits up.

But sometimes I just get this crushing sadness. I miss my husband and I'm lonely!

I spent most of Saturday and most of today with my best friend... but I'm still lonely.

My parents are going to come visit next weekend... but I'm sure I'll still be lonely.

*hugs*
Its really hard being far from the person you love.

*hugs*
Its really hard being far from the person you love.

Amen.

*lots of hugs and happy wishes*

Argh, I really shouldn't ever even try to stay up to date with online stuff around the winter holidays. I think every year I sorta try and just fail everywhere, eventually giving up and going almost silent until I get back home. This year I was gone for nearly a month. A month! That's bordering on the limit of my medium-term memory (or whatever you'd call it). It feels like I haven't been in the house in like a year; I've lost much of my muscle memory for where things are and stuff.

But now I'm back and trying to catch up with everything, which is tiring in and of itself.

Bob, the good news is, Kinley's EEG was normal! We don't have a childhood of seizures in sight!

The bad news is, we keep having weird trials. Now Tyler has shingles!

Life is so weird, and I'm SO past that magic "3" number of "things" coming together. I'm putting in for my break!

Bob,

Four days without power really sucked. What made it even worse is yesterday everyone around here had power except our street. I'm so glad to have hot water back!

- Soon to be a very clean Fred!

Kinley's EEG was normal! We don't have a childhood of seizures in sight!

THIS IS WONDERFUL NEWS!

Kinley's EEG was normal! We don't have a childhood of seizures in sight!

THIS IS WONDERFUL NEWS!

Thanks, Syphon.

Bob,
tomorrow is the day, I'm taking Cleo to the vet and I'm 99% sure she isn't coming home.
Today when John, my FIL, came home she was super slow to greet him, but when she met him in the kitchen she was all tail wags and happy to see him. This is the last time she will say hi to him when he gets home from work.
Tonight will be the last night she sleeps in my room.
this is the day of last times.

it sucks!

But then I look at her and I know its time, she sleeps all day and only has brief moments where she looks happy and comfortable. I even noticed lymphoma lesions on her tongue yesterday. I got her some Tramadol (a pain killer) from the vet because her moth seemed very painful. She seems much happier with the pain killers.

I don't know how I'm going to say goodbye to her

Teresa

*big big hugs*

*hugs* I'm so sorry.

I am sorry ! and been there and will be again, you,re doing the right thing .Why is it so hard to say farewell to a loyal dog?

Bob,

I am exhausted. Being "in transition" is hard.

Dear Bob,
Last week I fainted during Chem lab (I'm fine)
I have to face everyone tomorrow as "that girl who fainted last week"
I'm half wanting to laugh it off and half wanting to change my name and run in the other direction.

Did you go with laughing it off, I hope?

Also hope you're okay!

Cassandra, I'm sorry I totally forgot to reply to this! (This is a huge problem of mine, as I check threads when I don't have time to respond and then I can't remember what I was going to respond to.)

I was going to say that Tyler threw up a school a couple of weeks ago, and I was SO nervous about all the kids making fun of him. Especially since one kid told his mom that "it was the grossest day EVER!" Luckily, he's suffered no social ill-effects, so I hope it's the same for you!!

I was torn between amused and baffled that people "liked" that on FB. You have lovely friends.

Hey Bob,

You know, most of the time I love having the apartment to myself and being able to do my own thing, but last night was a little rough. I'm not the type of person who needs plans with people to be happy or feel like I had a successful weekend, but I think this weekend may be one too many without plans. There are things I could do, but I don't really feel like doing them. And what things I am actually going to do are just more things others planned that I'm just tagging along for. I miss having friends I could randomly call up and do something with. I miss having people I felt comfortable inviting over to just hang out. I miss people who actually wanted to hang out with me.

Sorry for the emo-ness. Apparently sleep didn't make it much better.


Love,
Me

Bob,

So, here we are. Here I am. zero left about an hour ago and on the walk back to my apartment from the train station, I stopped for a moment a few times to look more closely at some stuff along the way.

Leftover Chinese for lunch, some work to look at later, banking stuff to take care of, tidying up to do...I won't exactly be bored today.

But I am kind of horrific levels of terrified at the moment for two reasons, neither of which has to do with being alone or being harmed (in general, not sitting around in my apartment) or being away from AZ or anything I kind of expected to be hit by at this point, as far as fears go.

I keep telling myself that if I don't talk about it, post about it, whatever, maybe it'll go away.

God, I wonder if I'll sleep tonight.

Bob I'm totally creeped out! This monster killed (after terrorizing and sexually assaulting) some gal and her two small boys, after she helped him out and let him stay in her garage . Anyhow this creep was just found dead about a mile and a half from our farm where he shot himself. This is too close and is driving me nuts! It happened along a pretty quiet stretch of road that any other time of the year we would be using a lot since we farm some acreage along it. What makes people care so little for each other.

Bob I'm totally creeped out! This monster killed (after terrorizing and sexually assaulting) some gal and her two small boys, after she helped him out and let him stay in her garage . Anyhow this creep was just found dead about a mile and a half from our farm where he shot himself. This is too close and is driving me nuts! It happened along a pretty quiet stretch of road that any other time of the year we would be using a lot since we farm some acreage along it. What makes people care so little for each other.

I heard about this one the news yesterday and it completely creeped me out too, I had no clue it was so close to you though! That's scary!

Bob,

I have that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach that is just there and you have to stop and really focus to figure out why you feel so upset and crappy. I can figure out two reasons, neither of which I can do anything about.

1) The chances of my SIL and niece coming to visit from California anytime in the near future is getting slimmer and slimmer. There are many reasons but the biggest is that her husband doesn't view it as important enough to spend money on, so it's just not going to happen. However, I know if she made it clear that she really wanted to, it would happen. So, it leaves me feeling like I'm just not important enough. Old issues.

2) Babe, my leopard gecko, is not doing well. She already had been having some relatively minor issues in the last couple weeks, which required a vet visit. Then, Sunday, my cat snuck into our bedroom (where Babe is kept) and before we realized she was there, she gave her a couple scratches. Last night, I realized that she was not healing well and looked infected. I took her to the vet again today and I now have to give her antibiotic shots every two days. But she is really not well right now. I feel terrible for her. She is 11yo, which is getting up there for a leo, and I just don't know how bad she has to get before I have to decide to have her euthanized. But she has only been bad for a day or so. Maybe she'll be much better tomorrow. I really hope so.

Well, Babe just died. While I was holding her. But she twitched for like 30 minutes so it was horrible.

Oh Nomi, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

*great-big-super-long-hug-complete-with-wet-shoulder-from-the-tears*

I love you Nomi. You're a good momma. I hope you can find peace soon.

I'm so, so, sorry, Nomi. *hug* You tried so hard to help her get better; you were a great friend to her.