It's been a little while...
Not so long relative to the time I've been here, I guess. Over ten long years now. Doesn't seem so very long... Yet at the same time it feels like a lifetime ago. A whole different person. Several different people, even - of the various stages of change I feel like I've been through over that span of time.
I never really knew who I was or what I wanted to be, or what I would do or why or how all that time. Especially at the start. But that doesn't really matter, I think, in the end.
It's been a long road. Sometimes odd or even painful. Sometimes very difficult. But one that's me; at least, one that has added up somehow to be who and what I am at this moment, the only time that matters. But there'll be a moment next month when I ship off to military training. Nearly 6 months of it or so. Not that I'll be totally cut off that whole time, or even that I was really active here for the last year or so, but I do drop by to check in from time to time - and I will continue to do so whenever I can. I do have the responsibility of running my site, after all - as much as I trust my staff of mods, I know while I'm incommunicado I'll be anxious every day about the hundreds of people I feel responsible for, their hundred-thousand weekly posts of interaction and my general worry over all of it's well-being. So I'll definitely be grabbing every internet-moment I can.“No single decision you ever made has led in a straight line to where you find yourself now. You peeked down some roads and took a few steps before turning back. You followed some roads that came to a dead end and others that got lost at too many intersections. Ultimately, all roads are connected to all other roads.”
And you, too, Pweb, have been through so much in all this time as well. I remember movie rumors over 10 years ago when I first came here, and now it's finally come to fruition. And some of us have watched each others lives grow and change right before our eyes, watched each other live through the images and words we put out as messages in digital bottles. A part of each others lives even when one or the other has moved on; their life forever changed in some way, however small, and they themselves never quite the same person they would have been otherwise.
So. My old friends and those whom I have not seen in so long... I will see you again as soon as I can. Not goodbye, but see-you-later.“We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share. This is a precious moment, but it is transient. It is a little parenthesis in eternity. If we share with caring, lightheartedness, and love, we will create abundance and joy for each other. And then this moment will have been worthwhile.”