Postby starlooker » Thu Feb 23, 2012 5:02 am
So, this parenting thing is tough.
He woke up very jittery yesterday, seemed to have a lot of startle reflexes. It got worse through the day, wasn't sure what to make of it. Then, last night, around 9 he woke up. I got him and held him and he calmed down quickly -- just needed holding -- and then he wouldn't stop jerking, kind of, and shaking and sometimes his lips would look like they were chattering, even though he was asleep. Called the nurse in to look at him, and she called a resident who assessed him and THINKS he just has some sort of hyper reflexivity. After she made sure he wasn't going through methadone withdrawal or something. Anyhow, not seizures. Also, I've been told I'm very hormonal and it's okay and my husband has been told to expect to have to help me calm down a lot.
What I think, and I'll talk to his doctor about this morning, is that he's withdrawing from the Cymbalta. Resident doctor didn't think so, but also seemed kind of unsure.
Mommy guilt, and also fear, and also not liking that he really seemed so unhappy and jumpy last night.
Also can't sleep, even though he's in the nursery. Woke up a half hour ago, went to the bathroom, remembered him being all shaky, started crying.
Alone, tonight. Donny went home to work more on fixing up the house. Trying to decide whether or not to call for more pain meds.
We take him home, today. Donny is very excited about this. I am, too, although also nervous. Mom will be here tonight, and then tomorrow we're on our own.
There's another home somewhere,
There's another glimpse of sky...
There's another way to lean
into the wind, unafraid.
There's another life out there...
~~Mary Chapin Carpenter
