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Up at 5am. Ugggg. I am not one who gets out of bed when I can't sleep, but tonight I am just too tossy and turny.

It sucks that pregnancy makes you not able to sleep and a brand new baby will make you really not able to sleep.

I'm feeling sick after my anniversary dinner of rich food that i'm not used to. I'm also obsessing over something i shouldn't have confided to a friend today. But i can't call her about it til tomorrow so i'm up and posting this from my phone in bed at 4am, waiting for the rolaids and klonopin to kick in.

posting this from my phone in bed at 4am

That is a great reason to keep me in the technological dark age. The last thing I need is another way to stay connected to Pweb; I'd never sleep or work if I could get it on my phone.


Oh, it's 3:37AM. I'm up because it seems the only way to get alone, quiet time with both my brother and my mom's boyfriend around is to sacrifice sleep time.

Which is the lesser of two evils: letting the inmates (thoughts) run the asylum or losing some sleepy time? Apparently, I can't sleep if my thoughts aren't processed properly. Less sleepy time, it is.

Grah.

It's a normal morning time where I am, but you are not up at a decent hour. That sucks.

I've been up since 4:30am. I'm chalking this up to nervous energy about leaving for CA today. But booo. Hopefully I'll sleep on the 6 hour plane ride.

We're up late because 4:30am is too weird an hour to sleep until, and I can come home and sleep after the airport run.

Sort of involuntary insomnia, I guess.

It's 2:06AM; do you know where your G D is?

Tossing and turning in bed, is where. How quickly I went from struggling to stay awake to struggling to fall asleep. I'll feel this later, when I'm closing in the evening instead of getting off at 5 like normal. Well, I feel tired now but my brain won't shut down. We'll see. With any luck, I'll find some relief waiting for me in the later AM. This is going to be okay. Things are going to be okay, now. I know it.

Tossing and turning in bed, is where.

Well I was tossing and turning,
Turning and tossing,
Tossing and turning all night.

This is more like a narcolepsy post. I was so, so scared driving home tonight, I had the lively music up loud, was bellowing along with it, and STILL almost falling asleep. It was scary, but I had to get back somehow, by a certain time. I really, really want to never ever have that again.

One time we were driving home from the in-laws at night (it's about 2 hours away) and I could tell Brian was getting dangerously tired, despite caffeine intake. I thought about ways I could help him, since I was also too tired to drive. Inspiration struck and I let out a blood-curdling scream. Brian's adrenaline shot way up and he was wide awake the rest of the way home. Luckily, the kids slept right through the scream!

I would probably swerve the car off the road, but I bet it would be otherwise effective!

Sort of deliberate insomnia tonight, since I work the night shift tomorrow night. Blah. But I got to level 52 on The Incredible Machine before my brain cut out.

Instead of going to bed at a moderately decent hour like I should have, I discovered that while my phone may hate my computer, I can still send files the other way from computer to phone via bluetooth. So I've spent the past couple of hours playing with a free ringtone maker I found online.

First I tried Saeed, but after I made a loop that my perfectionist ears could tolerate, I discovered that it sounds awful on my phone's crappy speaker. Next I tried Ain't No Rest for the Wicked, but the chorus is too long to be a ringtone on my phone. Finally I made a loop I like and that my phone likes from Aerodynamic's guitar riff (around the 1:50 mark when the bass kicks in). So that's my new ringtone and I'm going to bed for real this time.

Inspiration struck and I let out a blood-curdling scream.

Something else that also helps: almost hitting another car. If you can manage to do that, I assure you you'll be rather wide awake.

Emphasis on 'almost', but I suppose actually hitting another car would also wake you up, but be much less helpful.

Third or fourth of insomnia

Running an experiment to see how long I can go without sleep. Most I've ever achieved is 24 hours before my will breaks, I proclaim to the world "f*** it!", and binge sleep.

Probably as long as I don't place myself in to a laying-down position then I'll be okay.

Out of curiosity, why?

I'm looking at the time right now and am concerned that I'll be facing another round of insomnia again tonight...

NAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH

I should go home and go to bed since I need to be up for work in five hours, but I'm not done catching up on/spamming Pweb yet...

I've been sleeping pretty fitfully, lately. But tonight I woke up around 4, managed to toss and turn in some strange dreams where Darth Vader had a brief cameo, and woke up rather solidly by 5. Hurrah.

Seriously? Quarter to seven? There is no calling for that! I didn't go to bed that early!

strange dreams where Darth Vader had a brief cameo

Did he come down from the planet Vulcan and threaten to melt your brain if you didn't take Loraine to the Enchantment Under the Sea dance?!

I am cherishing every moment of sleep while I can. Which isn't always much, but it's more than I can expect soon.

Up at 4:30 again (that seems to be my usual in here), this time due to noisy, pouring rain. By the time 5:30 rolled around, my stomach was growling so I had to get up and eat a mini protein bar.

Total lack of sleep last night. Got some dissertation done, saw the labour ward and birth pool, talked to the midwife about labour because I missed the official class about it today.

I had 3 nights of sleeping well in a row. That streak has ended.

Man, I'm tired of being awake in the middle of the darn night every night!

I only slept 4-5 hours within the past 36 hours, and I woke up every hour during it anyway. I realized I had put my electric blanket on a low setting because I was freezing when I laid down, and when I woke up for good I was burning up and it was like 78 degrees in my house. Not ok.

Night shift messes me up so much. Only 4 more shifts then back to working days. Can't. wait.

Awww, poor Cath! I hope you get some good sleep soon. Take care of yourself, babe. *hugs*

I do not know which member of P-web had the picture of Totoro but I thought that they would like this.

I do not know which member of P-web had the picture of Totoro but I thought that they would like this.

Funny, but what does it have to do with Totoro?

Ahhh @!##$%. That wasn't the picture at all.
Here it is.

I do not know which member of P-web had the picture of Totoro

shadow-petra?

I don't so much have insomnia, but my sleep schedule is all messed up...

With no full-time job, no schedule at all outside of a two hour rehearsal on Monday nights, 8 hour work day on Wednesday, and two church services on Sunday, the only part of which requires I be up before noon being the Sunday bit, my sleep schedule goes crazy. I'll start off on a somewhat normal schedule, getting up sometime around 9am, going to bed sometime around 1. Then it starts to shift, going to bed later and later, until I'm going to bed around 9am and waking up at 5pm. Sometimes it goes further, going to bed at noon and waking up at 8. I do sleep 8 hours, unless I have somewhere to be on a particular day.

Then one of two things happens. Either I suddenly start getting tired early in the evening, around 11, or even 10. So tired that I cannot keep my eyes open. I'll stay up as long as I can, but usually end up going to bed before midnight. Sleep 8 hours from whatever time I went to bed and wake up. That starts the cycle over again.

Or, and this is the fun one, I get insomnia really bad, I might not sleep for 24-36 hours, and then I might get by on a couple of sets of 3-4 hours of sleep for a day or two, then I'm back at the beginning of the cycle. This one has only happened a couple of times in the past two years, the other is far more common, thankfully.

I can't even blame it on one thing. If I'm not on the interwebs, I'm watching tv or I'm playing PS3, or I'm reading, or I'm cleaning the apartment, or I'm doing something else, just normal everyday stuff that most people do during daylight hours, I do it whenever I happen to be up.

Right now, I'm up. Last night I was up until... 9? I guess I can't really say last night. Yesterday. Yesterday I was up until 9am. Slept until 5. Tonight I plan to try to go to bed by 5, because I do need to be up by noon or 1 tomorrow for my day of work. (Although, I could even sleep until 2 or 2:30, I don't have to be at work at a set time this week, no staff meeting, and could just stay late after rehearsal. I work at a local church as the choir director, by the way.)

Yeah, I'm pretty much just rambling at this point. I'd make a blog post instead of this long pointless thing, but I don't know that it would make a lot of sense right now. Oh well. I think I'll quit, for now. Yay, insane, messed up sleep schedule.


Edit:

Nope, getting to bed BEFORE 5am tonight! 4:20 (though, according to the clock on the wall it is 10 after, guess I need to put a new battery in that one). Goodnight/morning!