Philotic Web

Aww, congratulations, you two.

Congratulations!!! I never think to look for clues.

: )

confession: sometimes I feel like I am divided into multiple people. I'm not entirely sure who I am and it's agonizing. My religion says I ought to be one thing, and I desperately want to be on good terms with that identity. The trouble is that it is only approaching sex and gender from the perspective of most people. and for most people I understand; I get it. The various roles of people that reflect the divine relationship makes perfect sense when I think of normal people. Normal, fully heterosexual, tame people who did not find themselves addicted to sexual experience long before knowing of the existence of such a thing as sex. My faith is very good at talking about those people, and about people who break free into being that.

so I don't know what i'm supposed to do or be. I am who I am, who I have been made, and I do not believe in running form that, no matter how contradictory it may feel at times. What I really want, I think, is to not feel condemned. To be fair, it is the coldness of any institution that is doing the condemning -- not any individual (although there is no individual with authority who knows either, but I certainly don't believe that anyone I would tell would be all hellfire) -- and that is an unfortunate aspect of any large institution. It would just be nice to manage to screw up the courage to even bring it up with someone who could show me grace, outside of the sacrament where it feels like they're kind of obliged to so long as you are repentant. But then, I'm too timid to speak without a mask, nearly too timid even with a mask. We'll see if i leave this post here come morning.

Confession: When I read the above post I began questioning whether one of my alternate identities had suddenly learned a new trick of doing things without my knowledge...

Congrats!

(I totally knew it was you.)

Congratulations!!

(I didn't see your username around, so it took me a while before I finally found who it was)

Yay!!!! My pweb babies need more pweb baby friends! I'm so excited for you guys!!!!!!

Confession:

I feel kind of dumb/pathetic. After I did a quick walk and did the yard this morning, I started messing around in my Pweb stuff, "working" on the decathlon (that I didn't think would get any/much involvement) and intended to not spend more than an hour on it, tops. It evolved into a ~4 hour distraction from life, with me doing all sorts of fun (read: pointless) stuff, like merging lists (first names and join dates) and trying and failing to see what avatars I don't have yet.

Have some quick facts, courtesy of the void that is my life.

I have:
161 Member names (various levels of active over the years, though I'm afraid I wasn't very good at deciding who made the cut for the less active)

Of those 161, I have:
122 First names
68 Pweb 2.0 Join Dates recorded
29 Alts recorded
5 Nothing but username
2 Ye Olde Pweb Join Dates recorded

Separately, I have at least 110 pictures of either solo Pwebbers or 2+ Pwebbers and 299 avatars, though I'm sure I'm missing some of those.

I have a list of people members have spoken to on the phone or met, gathered from a thread on the board.

I have a list of people who have dated other members; *grin* this is massively incomplete but it feels wrong to ask for this. We'll say it's for my amusement and leave it at that.



I even started a new list (incomplete because I can't verify if members from YOP joined in 2000 or 2001), to streamline the process of figuring out basic join dates:

Class of 2000
Amka
Boothby
Hegemon
locke
Luet
mr_thebrain
Oliver Dale
steph
Taalcon
Young Val
zevlag

Class of 2001
CalvinMaker
Eddie Pinz
Syphon the Sun
v-girl
zeroguy

Class of 2002
Boromakot_15
Claire
dapyr0x
Dr. Mobius
Eaquae Legit
ender1
Fodi
Jayelle
JotaBe
Mich
powerfulcheese04
Ratesjul
Reticent
starlooker
strokeman
ThirdXenocide
Vampire Hunter D
WildSurfChica
Yebra

Class of 2003
endercoaster
Ekaterina
Gravity Defier
Han Tzu
hive_king
neo-dragon
Rei
Seiryu
Swordsman
Thoughtreader
Virlomi
Wind_Swept
wizzard

Class of 2004
Petra456
Popcornbaby
ti_ama

Class of 2005
anonshadow
human.
LilBee91
lyons24000

Class of 2006

Class of 2007
BonitoDeMadrid


Class of 2008
CezeN
Elfprince

Class of 2009
buckshot
chromesthesia
Jeesh_girl15
Megxers
Peterlover14
Sonniku13

Class of 2010
Game Room Wannabe
Graff^
HeatherDanger


My related confession is: It took all of me not to yell at the newbies who told me either privately or publicly that I have more of a life than I think or than them. They meant well, I appreciated the thought, but A) these are high school kids and B) they don't know why I say it and how it's true.


Other related confession: Even if I feel pathetic, I also feel a little proud. Plus, I console myself with the idea that people with goals live longer than those without, regardless of the goal itself.

Thanks for all the congrats, folks!
Yes indeed, kid #2 is on it's way. Now you know why some of my posts have been a bit bitchier then usual - pregnancy makes me a bit crazy.

Wow, so exciting! When is your due date? I was born 12/5 so maybe it'll be close. How much older will Ginny be?

Wow, that's impressive, Alea. And congrats, JL!

It's about 12/3 but I'm not putting much stock in that. Maybe it'll be born on your birthday! Ginny will be about 2.5 (28 mo).

Alea,

I'm in the class of 2002. Original join date was sometime in August or September of that year. It was right before the original crash. Re-joined sometime in November of that year. Although I am assuming that you have my join date from 2.0.

Alea,

I'm in the class of 2002. Original join date was sometime in August or September of that year. It was right before the original crash. Re-joined sometime in November of that year. Although I am assuming that you have my join date from 2.0.

2001, then. Your 2.0 join date is November 23, 2001. I wasn't sure if you showed up in 2001 or 2000, as is the problem I'm running into with most people who had a sign up date of 2001 on 2.0.

Thanks, mister. My ch'i takes one more step towards being centered.

Alea,

I'm in the class of 2002. Original join date was sometime in August or September of that year. It was right before the original crash. Re-joined sometime in November of that year.

You mean 2001.

ETA: Grrr, you beat me, Alea. My dates are all over the place. I joined the first time in 2001, then the place crashed and I came back with a new username in (December?) 2001. I left again and came back in (I think) 2003. Didn't rejoin after Major Crash II until 2007.

I left again and came back in (I think) 2003.

March 12, 2003 as bc_hornet. I don't have the join date for your other I'm aware of but I'll go with 2001 as your year and cry a little on the inside for not knowing month at the very least.

I'm pretty sure it was only weeks before the crash. So, what, October?

Ah. I meant 2001. Stupid chubby fingers not hitting the right key. And I was off in my head on the 2.0 join date. I thought it was an even date in the early 20's of November. I was thinking the 22nd with the 24th as my back up choice. Figures it would be the 23rd

I was pre-original crash...not sure, but I think that was 2000-2001? Definitely before September 11th, because I remember vividly a heated debate, LOL. I dare you to figure it out

Oh, and I started out as Valentine_Wiggin. Moved to ValentineWiggin, then YEARS later, (2007?) I became ValentineNicole. Re-signed up as Valentine when I lost my password. Went back to ValentineNicole when I lost the other password.

Class of 2001

I'm '01; joined sometime in the summer, I think.

I dare you to figure it out

I can only do so much, dare or not. The archives skip from April 2001 to August 2002 for the forum, regardless of when the homepage update was listed. Even though I can go digging around in posts, the old software didn't list join dates with the username and you might have been between April and the crash.



Ed, I was wrong. November 25, 2001. (http://web.archive.org/web/200304282327 ... 146&page=2)

ETA: Actually, there was a clone of you, maybe. Great Saiyaman is the 25th, Great Sayiaman is the 23rd.

I was pre-original crash...not sure, but I think that was 2000-2001? Definitely before September 11th, because I remember vividly a heated debate, LOL. I dare you to figure it out

Oh, and I started out as Valentine_Wiggin. Moved to ValentineWiggin, then YEARS later, (2007?) I became ValentineNicole. Re-signed up as Valentine when I lost my password. Went back to ValentineNicole when I lost the other password.

Okay I've been trying to think of a better custom title, but now I can't change it.

wait, what?
StS is bc_hornet?

i thought he was a newbie from 2007 or 2008 or so -_-

Great job, Alea

ETA: Actually, there was a clone of you, maybe. Great Saiyaman is the 25th, Great Sayiaman is the 23rd.

I spelled it wrong the first time. I forgot about that. Good times. And figures, still no even numbers.

Confession:

I didn't know The Wayback Machine was an actual website... I just figured someone had access to the old board somehow and that's just what they were calling it.

It's a fun site.

*Just talking to myself*

Who are you talking to?

Myself of course.

I don't understand Penny Arcade's "lookouts" comic mini-arc... things. I'm not really sure how to even explain what it is I don't understand. I get 'automata'; the noir style mixed with some scifi tech and retro-looking robots, that's cool.

But 'lookouts'... I just don't understand where this is coming from. The context. The 'thing' I'm supposed to be familiar with to catch the stylistic or thematic similarities to... whatever it is that it's similar to.

I don't hate it or anything, like I do with some things. It just leaves me... confused. Ellipses-using. And a little wtfamireading.jpg.

I don't understand Penny Arcade's "lookouts" comic mini-arc... things. I'm not really sure how to even explain what it is I don't understand. I get 'automata'; the noir style mixed with some scifi tech and retro-looking robots, that's cool.

But 'lookouts'... I just don't understand where this is coming from. The context. The 'thing' I'm supposed to be familiar with to catch the stylistic or thematic similarities to... whatever it is that it's similar to.

I don't hate it or anything, like I do with some things. It just leaves me... confused. Ellipses-using. And a little wtfamireading.jpg.

I'm not too sure what the poem-thing is going on, but it's pretty clear to me that the Lookouts are supposed to be trying to kill or stave off the owl-thing. Or do you mean what the Lookouts are? It's based off of the idea of a Boy Scout organization existing in a LotR setting, and how hardcore it must be to be a Boy Scout in that kind of lifestyle, where death is a lot more common.

Confession:

I got scared reading something wicked this way comes and I didn't ever finish it.

and no, I'm not going to tell you how old I was at the time. :-p

Confession: I really want to eat a McGangBang.

Please eat it far away from your pregnant wife.

I don't really know who I am right now, aside from a 20-something mother. My whole life revolves around the care and teaching of 3 fabulous kids. But where am I in the mix? I don't have anything I'm known for, like my friends do. (ie; crafty, musical, holistic, etc.) I don't have any special or unique talents. If someone asks me what's special or unique about me, I can come up with about 300 hundred answers about Brian (because, let's face it, he's got more quirky talents than anyone I know), but nothing about me. I'm just so average, ordinary and plain and I hate it.

He just told me they are engaged and want to get married within the next two years. I think I may have dodged the crazy bullet?

On one hand, I can't help feeling that if i would have made different decisions this would have been me, but yeah, on the other hand...

edit: now one of my other best friends and I are having a huge argument over real life and stories and meaning and being assertive. Ugh.