Confessions of a 20-something mother

[Jeesh_girl15]

I sometimes feel like everyone I see is secretly judging me.

Oh, I feel that way all the time

[BonitoDeMadrid]

Sometimes I feel anti-social not only because of disgust, but also (or is it mainly?) out of deep envy.

[Jeesh_girl15]

I feel that way, but I don't truly care about what they think, cause I know I am already extremely, super duper, super awesome. And I am like never anti-social. I could gossip all day if I wanted to. Unless of course, I had a sore throat

[Young Val]

It's looking more and more likely that I'll never be a 20-something mother. Of course, I'll undoubtedly be a 30-something mother... but that's not quite the same.

[starlooker]

I'm right there with you, Kelly. I was actually thinking that last night.

[starlooker]

*double post*

The stick figure sex scenes in xkcd make me giggle.

[daPyr0x]

I'm acting like a little kid and avoiding any contact with my girlfriend for the next 2 days because I'm mad at her (and she's expecting to see me tomorrow)

And I feel completely justified in doing so.

[Jeesh_girl15]

Ooooh, I feel sorry for your girl.

If you don't mind me asking, what happened?

[Confessions]

I get jealous every time there's a new wedding album on facebook.

[daPyr0x]

JG: Long story short, she had me spend the entire time I had with her running her errands while being cold and distant. I said something, very nicely, about wanting actual "us" time when I made the effort to see her, she said she understood, yet didn't change anything; so come the next weekend when we were to see eachother next, well, I guess you probably already figured I didn't see her.

Confession: Even though she's not really responded, I'm already disappointed in her initial response. I'm sure that'll distort how I interpret things when she finally does, but I just don't care. I shouldn't have to start a fight to get some quality time with my girlfriend, and it shouldn't take a week and a half to resolve things either.

[Gravity Defier]

I read this

Vibram Fivefingers

as "Vibrating Fingers" the first time through.

[Confessions]

The last rose petal still hasn't fallen. I should know; it still sits on my dresser.

[Confessions]

And it never shall.

[Jeesh_girl15]

The last rose petal still hasn't fallen. I should know; it still sits on my dresser.

Sorry, but when I read that, I thought of Beauty and the Beast

[Confessions]

All my life I felt like something great was waiting for me. I've never believed in destiny but, at the same time, I have always felt that my future was written and I was destined for something beyond me.

I have lived my life trying to find this thing, to make it come to me, but that has only led to mistakes. I cannot make it come to me but must wait for it to come to me.

And what else? This knowledge - understanding - has let me know that something else is coming. I can only see my death at the other end. But I can also see a now-comforting knowledge.

I will be happy then.

Sometimes my heart beats with the joy of expectation.

[Gravity Defier]

Confession: I just witnessed my first house fire firsthand, as in not on the news or in a movie, three houses down from mine on the backyard side. Not only did I feel downright terrible for the people who live in that house, I freaked out a little more for my own selfish, over-worrisome reasons and started asking how I'd handle a fire that size in my own house. The answer is not well at all.

Also, I took pictures from my backyard. Apparently, I cope with bad things by taking pictures of them. Like my grandpa's funeral a few years ago.

[powerfulcheese04]

I'm 22, nearly 23, and still afraid to flout my parents' rules/expectations when in the same city as them.

[starlooker]

Oh my gosh, Kimmie, I always assumed you were closer to my age. Possibly due to a certain maturity factor you've always had. Good lands, you're young!

[powerfulcheese04]

Hahaha! I think I'm going to take that as a compliment, Kirsten.

[starlooker]

Please do It really was intended that way!

[locke]

I too thought the Kimster was a couple years older rather than being one of the younglings. :-p

[powerfulcheese04]

I'm not that young, guys! But I'm flattered you think I'm older.

[daPyr0x]

I'm 22, nearly 23, and still afraid to flout my parents' rules/expectations when in the same city as them.

That is the most I think I have ever related to something written on pweb.

[starlooker]

I. Am. An. Idiot.

*facedesk*

[powerfulcheese04]

As much as I know how clothes should look, theoretically, I am terrible at dressing my own body. I have always worn clothes that are too big for me, and it's a very hard habit to break!

[Rei]

I could not have told you the last time I'd cried at a movie, but I cried all through the beginning of Up.

[Jeesh_girl15]

Oh, I cried alot when my mom and dad took me to Fireproof or whatever the movie was called... I didn't want to see it at first, but it was good, and i cried alot. I tried to make it look like i wasn't crying, and my mom noted that i looked like i was messing with my hair alot more than usual.

[Mich]

Confession: I get a strange glee every time someone mistakes me for a junior in high school. All the time, too. Graduation college next year, but no, "probably 17." I could never beat my roommate, though; she looks like a freshman, and is constantly mistaken for 14.

[starlooker]

I would rather watch America's Next Top Model than study, despite the fact that the licensure exam is tomorrow.

[LilBee91]

Almost every decision I make is more to please my parents than myself. I think it's because they demand so little and do so much, making me feel obligated to do what they would want, regardless of how much I don't want to.
I try to pretend this is a good thing, so I feel less pathetic.

eta: Basically, I'm 18 and still afraid to flout my parents rules/expectations even when not in the same city as them.

[Confessions]

I feel intense guilt...

I went out with a friend to a club for some DJ's birthday party. There, we met up with other people I did not know. We travelled around a little through the night, and ended up at what I was told would be an after party. We beat the hosts there, thinking that we just couldn't reach them. The hosts, people who are friends of one of the people I already don't know, eventually show up and let us in. It's not long before one of the hosts' girlfriends comes out, clearly awoken from bed, and asks him what's going on, why he has people over so late, etc. It doesn't take him long to go off, talking very loudly and...inappropriately to her. One girl we were with says something, he tells her to leave. It isn't long before the yelling is escalating and a group of us let ourselves out. The person who brought us there stayed in, along with the guy's roommate/friend/whomever. I was the last to get out the door, as I opted to put my shoes on (rather than carrying them out and putting them on later). I intended to close the door as I walked out but I didn't, and as I turned to face the door (going down the stairwell) I caught a glimpse of the main hallway. I see her stumble and fall on her way away from him. And as I continued down the stairwell and out of the building, I heard very loud noises from the apartment.

A few minutes later the person who brought us there came out, apologizing profusely that we were exposed to that. Supposedly, the girlfriend had been trying to hit the guy and he was attempting to restrain her. Yeah, right.

I don't know these people. I don't even know how I know these people. I know nobody's name (I am quite bad with names), and judging from this guy I'm not sure I want to do anything to put the person who unknowingly brought us there in anything bad. I couldn't even give an address to where I was.

But really, I'm justifying things. I practically witnessed domestic abuse, and I did nothing about it.

I guess I just....hoped one of the two guys who actually knew this guy would control things. And maybe they did, I really couldn't say. But I can't say I'd put any bets on that.

I did nothing.

[Eaquae Legit]

Hey Confessions,

That's an awful situation. And an awful guilt.

Ideally, we should all be heroes. We all wish we were, and promise ourselves that should the situation arise, we WILL be. But when you're caught in something like that, uncertainty kicks in, the desire to not make a fuss, not cause problems for people over what could be a misunderstanding, etc. etc.

Last year, there was a fuss across the street from me. Very loud death threats, a visible scuffle, and an agitated roommate or something pacing the room. Stuff was thrown out a window. I still have no idea what happened, but at the very least someone was beat up, possibly raped, and at the time, I was worried he was being strangled. Despite all this, it took ages for me to work up the courage to call the police. In the end, my housemate dialled to report a domestic disturbance. At the time, I didn't know I was the only one who heard the death threats clearly, so she didn't report them. By the time the police came by the street to check it out, everything was dark and quiet.

That was darn near a year ago, and it still feels awful. The point I'm trying to make, I think, is that yeah, maybe you should have done something. But you're not a monster or a horrible human being. Try to let the experience stick with you, so that if you're stuck in a similar situation in the future, you remember and act.

I hope you don't mind the comment. I can delete it if you want.

[buckshot]

The terrible thing is , we need to listen to our conscience and act quick to save people. But people are so full of bullshit you never know what youre stepping into. Too many idiots thrive on drama and discontent in their nightly lives, and us good samaritians end up looking foolish for stepping in .
PS. I do have a couple of good true tales to back up my opinion!

"Buck up buttercup"

[Eaquae Legit]

It's a blue day again.

[starlooker]

During a recent Wal-Mart trip, I bought a Sham-Wow from the As Seen on TV aisle. And a Ped-Egg.

And I'm thinking about buying those miracle hanger deals. And it took all of a friend's pleading and explaining why it's utter crap to keep me from buying the Slap Chop.

I am a SUCKER for As Seen on TV stuff when it's in an aisle in a store.